Part 1 -------------------------------------
It was on 9th October, only 2 days after Jayden’s ‘full month’ ( better known as ‘mua guek’ in Hokkien). On the 7th, we had hold a small party at home, invited relatives and close friends, celebrating bb’s full month. At tat time, I didn’t bring Jayden downstairs to meet all the ppl, though a lot of ppl would like to see him. It was because he keeps on crying and making big fuss every nite. According to old ppl, he’s scared and shudn’t be seeing tat much ppl cox it’ll make him worse. But I know tat my bb was just having colic.
All thru my confinement, I hadn’t really rest well. I couldn’t sleep almost every nite. I would awaken at the slightest sound I heard, assuming it’s my bb crying. Though I feel exhausted, after all tat I’ve been thru, I juz feel tat my responsibilities had increased wid the birth of my bb, and I simply couldn’t allow myself to rest.
I had bad mood swings, sometimes I feel perfectly fine, and sometimes I feel very scared and sad. I cried most of the times; though secretly. I really couldn’t control myself. I’d been over sensitive, and I feared tat no one will attend to the bb when he cries at nite. At the start of my confinement, I was still on medication. (Prednisolone for my rashes; Labetalol for my hypertension; Paracetamol for pain/mild fever) My need to take all tis medicine everyday make me feel even worse. I was afraid to breastfeed, assuming all tis drug wil affect my bb especially the medication for my allergy.
Why I couldn’t sleep at nite, fearing tat no one will attend to my bb when he cries at nite, and why I would wake even at the slightest sound I heard, was all because I did not trust my confinement lady. On the 1st nite she arrived, I’d saw her fallen asleep while feeding Jayden. She was lying down on the mattress and placed bb in her arms, and sticking the feeding bottle rite into his mouth and Jayden was half asleep and half sucking the milk from the bottle. I fear so much tat my bb will choke as he was only 3days old then. I woke her up, telling her not to feed my bb tat way but at tat very moment I know although I placed the care of my bb in the hands of another person, I must be alert enuf to monitor if tat person is doing it the rite way.
I was exhausted bcos of all my deprived sleep. I should be resting but instead I couldn’t. So I tend to sleep more daytime as I’m sure wid my family members around, my confinement lady wil be more hardworking. It is Foochow customs to take 7meals per day during the confinement period. Whenever my food was served to me, I couldn’t eat much bcos I was too tired. My lack of rest and oso lack of appetite made my mum-in-law complained about me. She told my hubby tat I wasn’t eating enuf and I shud be eating more. But most of the time I’d rather sleep, for I know once again when night time falls, I’d had to be my bb’s guardian angel again and to look over him.
I told my mum about my sleep problem and tat I couldn’t rest at nite as I worry too much. I got scolded by her cox she was worry about my health (hypertension) and oso the fear tat I’ll get depression. I know everyone around me was very worried about me. My sis tried to make me understand tat even at times the confinement lady wil be too tired bcox of all the works she’d had to do daytime, and yet look after the bb at nite. Sincerely I didn’t blame her at all for her negligence then, bcox I understand wat my sis told me was true. I told her tat she can cook very simple dishes for me during daytime, and my priority would be to take good care of Jayden. Honestly, I’d rather starve than to have Jayden’s safety harmed. It was then tat they made me to sleep in the next room at nite, so I could be well-rested.
It was useless. Even in the next room, I’d pay even more attention to any noise tat’d sound like my bb crying. Sometimes Jayden would be crying for quite sometime before the confinement lady would attend to him. I told SH about my fears, and I really do not trust the confinement lady to take k of Jayden. During the 1st week, since I couldn’t do much, she seems to be a hardworking lady. Everyone was satisfied. When I started to heal slowly and had learnt how to feed Jayden n change his dirty diapers, the confinement lady starts to be lazier. At times when we are alone, she’d purposely not attend to bb until I do. Since I’m bb’s mother, of cuz I couldn’t bear to not attend to his needs when he started crying. This is my weakness, and the smart lady had learnt how to manipulate me.
Part 2 -------------------------------------
My confinement period was like hell. I started being depressed and cry most of the time and owest complaining to SH. Since I was still in my confinement period, I really couldn’t bend over too much while changing bb’s dirty diapers. It made my backbone ache, and though they told me to rest, they do not understand my difficulties. At times I felt tat my confinement lady just purposely neglect changing bb’s dirty diapers (bb does ‘poo-poo’ n ‘she-she’ a lot during the 1st month), and Jayden owest cry like hell whenever he’s wet n dirty, so I must do it myself. In tat way, how am I suppose to get enuf rest?
It was a relief when the 1month period is almost over. However, I started to worry if I’ll be able to take care of Jayden by myself. I know tat SH wil need to go back to work in KK as he had accompanied me for quite a long time oledi during bb’s 1st month. My hardest task was to bathe Jayden. I’d never bathe such a small bb before, and to me, he seems to be so fragile. No matter what, I told myself tat I must learn.
Everyone said tat after bb’s 1st month, it’ll be easier to manage him. As I think Jayden must be having colic then, he owest cry whenever evening falls. Sometimes he’ll cry for such a long time for no reason at all. It must be there’s ‘wind’ in his tummy. We tried all the methods we heard of, even traditional method.
On the 2nd day after Jayden’s ‘full month’, as usual he was making a lot of fuss again. SH was supposed to go bek to KK tat day, and before he left, he decided to bring Jayden to see chinese physician, to prescribe some medicine for him. We brought him out around 2pm. When we brought him back home, he seems to be uncomfortable again. So hubby told the confinement lady (who’ll be leaving the very next day) to boil an egg and use it to rub from bb’s head to toe. It’s a traditional method which will reduce the ‘wind’ and miraculously, it owest does help to soothe Jayden.
After everything was done, I went downstairs to have my tea. Like I say, I was supposed to have 7meals per day. Since I didn’t want to trouble the confinement lady to cook anything for me, I juz ate some toasts. While I was eating, I heard the confinement lady cooking sth in the kitchen. I tot tat she was preparing dinner for me, but turned out tat she was frying some onions n ginger. Then she rushed upstairs again with the stuff she cooked b4 I had time to ask her wat’s she doing. She was rubbing those stuff all over Jayden, and when she brought Jayden downstairs, he was all oily and smells like he had been covered with ginger and onions. I questioned hubby wat happened, and he said the ‘smart’ lady had once again used her own traditional method to ‘cure’ Jayden without discussing it wid us beforehand. Sigh… well, in my mind, if it’s sth tat’ll help to soothe Jayden, then she’s oso doing it for the sake of bb. Jayden seems to be sleeping soundly then, so she placed him in the baby cot in the living room.
When I saw tat he was sleeping soundly in the cot, I went back into the dining room to clean up. As I was putting away the toaster, I heard a loud thud, and then Jayden started wailing. I rushed out of the dining room into the living room and saw my bb on the floor, beneath the cradle. My heart dropped, and I stood there frozen. For a while, my mind was blank. Wat had happened? I started screaming and crying and asked who put him in the cradle. Wasn’t he asleep soundly in his baby cot when I left him? I rushed over and snatched him away from the confinement lady.
As I looked down at Jayden, he really terrified me. He had stopped crying. His eyes were wide opened, staring ahead blankly. He was looking so pale and white. (Jayden had owest been reddish and a bit dark since he was born) I just held on to him, not knowing wat to do. I was calling out to him hoping tat he’ll start to cry again but he remained silent. My confinement lady then took Jayden away from me and starting calling his name and hitting on the floor where he fell. I was too stunned, I just stood affix there. SH rushed over to his sister’s house and soon my sis-in-law was there. She asked wat happened, and with her sound mind, she insisted to bring bb to hospital immediately.
I carried my bb and rushed into the car. It was 5pm then, and traffic jam had started. SH drove wid the double signal light on and I just hope we get to Kuching Specialist fast. Jayden was then sleeping in my arms. There was a big swelling bump now on his left head. As I looked down on him, I started to weep again in the car. “Oh God! Why had this happened? Why my baby?” He was as white as sheet, and I feared tat he’ll leave me just like tat.
Part 3 -------------------------------------
The cradle!
Why had she placed bb in the cradle when it wasn’t ready yet. The day before SH had assembled the cradle. However, we hadn’t bought a suitable cradle net yet, and my in-law had suggested us to use a ‘kain sarong’ instead. I remembered when we were kids, and there wasn’t anything such as a cradle net yet then, my mum had owest used a ‘kain sarong’ too. So, I hung a piece of my own sarong on the cradle hook, but the sarong wasn’t suitable. It was way too short so the cradle was very high. Even the thought of it worries me now. So SH and I decided to buy a cradle net later tat evening, maybe when he’s on the way to the airport.
In the next living room, there was a piece of new mattress there. SH had brought it down a few days ago, and we had placed bb on the mattress there when we were playing wid him in tat living room. Tat piece of mattress was supposed to be placed under bb’s cradle when we rock him in there. It was a thought I had in mind, and reminded myself to remember to place the mattress beneath the cradle when we had bought the cradle net. But all this were too late…. no one had expected the confinement lady would had placed him in there without checking out on the cradle beforehand, and without any safety measure such as placing the mattress beneath the cradle. All these are regrets……..
My thoughts went back to the moment when I just conceived. I wasn’t prepared then, and the thoughts of me having a bb and all the pain I’ll haf to go through during pregnancy & childbirth, had made me doubted the decision to be a mother. I still went for my modern class back then, and had even practiced hard for an upcoming dance performance. I was prancing and jumping around then, since I hadn’t known tat I was pregnant then, and besides for being nauseatic when I was really tired, I was fine. If he had survived back then, please dear Father in Heaven, please do not take him away from me now, after all that I’d been thru… Is this my punishment? If it is, it shud be taken out on me, not my baby. If anything happen to him, I’ll feel myself snap.
Part 4 -------------------------------------
Finally we reached A&E Unit of Kuching Specialist Hospital. The pediatrician was in the operation theatre at tat time for another caesarian birth. However, the doc n nurses on duty tat time were fast n efficient. They monitored Jayden’s blood pressure n oso his breathing, then checked his body for other bruises and bumps. Then they asked me to carry him while waiting for the doc to arrive. When Dr.Lim K.T (KPJ Pediatrician) arrived, he still remembered me. He asked me wat happened, and inspecting the big swell on Jayden’s head, he said they’ll need to do an x-ray on his head to confirm if there’s any fracture. He mentioned tat it was a very high fall for such a small baby, n they just hope there won’t be any skull fracture.
I carried Jayden in my arms and went into the X-Ray Room. SH and the rest of our relatives had to wait outside. The lady in charged asked me to put on a very heavy robe (looks like the type of bulletproof jacket we see on tv, except tat it’s longer) and to hold Jayden’s head firmly while she took his x-ray. After tat, I was asked to wait as the lady needs to check if the x-ray taken was clear enough. At tat time, I was shivering… not sure if it was because I was feeling cold or too nervous. Jayden starts to wail again. He must be hungry then. SH came into the X-Ray when he heard Jayden wailing. The lady came in again to tell us tat she need to take another x-ray shot as the first ones aren’t clear enough. Jayden must had been moving his head around when the films were taken. This time it was SH’s turn to hold bb’s head. I guess he was worried about my health too.
This time the x-ray films turned out to be okie. Doc forbids us to feed Jayden because they r afraid tat it might make him throw up. They were supposed to monitor if he had any fittings or if he vomits, because these are serious signs to show tat his brain is injured.
Part 5 -------------------------------------
This statement made me think back of the days when I was 9yrs old. Tat time dad had brought my eldest sis and me to a Shell-organized Telematch. Dad wasn’t supposed to join in the race bcox he wasn’t feeling well, but when his name was announced over the speakers for him to be one of the participants, my outgoing dad had decided to participate. As mum had told him not to join in any sports when we went out tat day, I tugged on daddy’s hand and told him about wat mum had said earlier on. Dad turned around and told me tat it was alrite, assuring me tat he’ll be back soon. He gave me his car keys and ran out towards the race tracks. In tat game, they were all running backwards.
When the piston was fired, everyone ran real fast. Daddy was ahead of others, and suddenly when he almost reached the finishing line, he fell down. I thought it wasn’t serious at all, and soon he’ll get up again to continue running. But everyone started to gather around daddy. More and more ppl started to come. Sis and I ran towards daddy to see wat all the great big fuss was about. When I saw my dad lying on the ground, I still remember seeing all the foams coming out from his mouth n nose. Back then I really do not know wat was happening.
Only today did I realized tat dad was having a fit back then. On tat very day, tat very incident changed my whole life. Daddy had injured his brain badly from the fall. He was in a coma for more than a month, and everyone tot he would not have survived. When he finally woke up one day after lying on the bed in the hospital for weeks, he never recovered completely again. He didn’t recognize us anymore; not his wife nor his children, and he was bedridden for the rest of his life. 13yrs… tat was how long daddy had been bedridden. Everything tat a 3year old could do, dad couldn’t. Why hadn’t I held on to daddy’s hand and not let him join in the race back then?
Part 6 -------------------------------------
From that day onwards, I realized how serious brain injury can be. Now this had happened to my bb, I really don’t know wat to expect. I sat down on the nearby bench as the doctors were inspecting Jayden’s x-ray film. Please Lord, I prayed… please let all this be over soon, and we could all go home. By the look on their faces (the doctors, hubby and sis-in-laws), I knew things wasn’t going on fine. I braced myself and went over to listen to wat the doctors were saying. When I saw the x-ray film placed on the lighted panel, I saw an opening on Jayden’s skull. His skull had cracked from the fall, and the opening was quite big for a little bb. The next step was to do a CT scan, to see if his brain is injured. If his brain isn’t injured, then doc say we need not worry but juz to let the fractured skull heal by itself thru time. I was blank and I didn’t know wat to think. I held on to bb, and still he was looking so pale. Many thoughts ran thru my head, I juz gazed down at bb blankly.
This time SH said he’ll bring bb in for the CT scan. All this radioactive rays on a 32day-old bb – I was really reluctant. But all I could think of was to follow doc’s advice. Everyone was worried tat I’ll collapse. Since I shud still be in my confinement period (44 days to be exact), I still wasn’t strong enuf physically. Doc said Jayden was being a good boy when the CT scan was performed. He didn’t cry but instead had fallen into slumber. He must have been too tired from all his crying. Moreover, he must be starving. When the films from the scan were inspected, doc confirmed tat there was blood clot in Jayden’s brain. He needs to be hospitalized, and his condition monitored for 24hrs.If he doesn’t show any symptoms such as vomiting, fever, or fitting; then they can presume tat he’ll be fine.
Tat nite, SH and I accompanied bb Jayden in the hospital. I daren’t call to tell my mum wat had happened. I know tis will terrify her. So I called sis, told her wat had happened; and asked her to let mum know calmly. I was afraid I might burst into tears over the fon when talking to my mum, or I might sound too worried to let her think otherwise. All nite long, Jayden keeps on crying. His head must had hurt badly, and when he’s too tired after crying, he’ll fall asleep. His voice sounded sore from all his crying, and it really broke my heart. We cradled him in our arms when he was crying, soothed him and sang lullaby to him. We keep on singing the song ‘Jesus Loves Me’ to him and it seems to help to soothe him once in awhile.
Part 7 -------------------------------------
In my heart, I greatly regretted all that had happened. I felt tat I owed so much to my little baby and had put his life in great danger. The loud thud I heard when he fell was still ringing in my ears. It had owest been a mother’s responsibility to protect their babies. I had failed to do so. Deep in my heart, I questioned my own negligence. Had I bothered to place the mattress, which lies just a few feet away from the place Jayden fell, he wouldn’t be lying there on the bed in the hospital with a big swell on his head. At tat moment, I truly feel tat it’s so hard to trust others with the safety of my own child.
Now Jayden is fine, growing bigger and stronger everyday. After his fall, we’d consulted all the best neurosurgeons we could find in Kuching. Their concern were the same, tat was to let him heal by himself. The blood clot will disappear thru time and the fracture will heal too. All tat we hope is tat he’ll grow up fine like every other babies. Too much x-rays and CT scans will not be good for his health as well, cox it will destroy his growing brain cells. No one can ever predict wat will happen tomorrow. Through God’s grace, Jayden had survived tis mishap. For the days to come, may my bb grow up fine and healthy.
May God bless owest…….
1/11/2008
12/16/2007
"on de Day my bb was born"
Part I *********************************************
It was Friday, 7th of September, and i was on my way to my mum's place when my hubby called. I was supposed to go for another checkup on the following day, and i haven't realised that it was a public holiday. Since i had noticed a drop in the number of kicks my bb made recently, i decided i should not wait over the weekend for my weekly checkup.
Mum needed my to accompany her to settle some of her stuffs tat morn, so i decided to go over to see the gynae later in the evening. Both my legs were badly swollen by then, and as a matter of fact, it had started to hurt when i drive. Though my tummy were so big then, I still drove myself over to see my gynae tat day. In my mind it was juz another checkup and it'll be over very soon.
Around 3+pm, i went over to Dr. Ng's clinic. After the normal urine test, i was required to do another urine test. Doc told me tat there was sign of albumin (protein) in my first urine test, and i had to do another test to confirm the result. In my mind, it juz seems so harmless cox i do not know of the consequences. After the 2nd test, it was confirmed of the albumin existence in my urine and the reading was quite high. I had no idea of the scale they used, but i remembered she told me tat it was '3+' and it was not a good sign. After that she took my blood pressure, and surprisingly my bp tat day was higher than normal exceeding 150. My bp had been normal all the while and it had never occured to me tat i'm having hypertension, and i'm feeling perfectly fine without any dizziness.
Doc told me tat i'm suffering from a condition called 'pre-eclampsia'. Well, since the term is juz another medical term for me, i had no idea how serious it can actually be. She told me i had to be admitted to hospital at tat moment on emergency basis, and i should give birth ASAP. I wasn't prepared for all this, hubby is still in KK and will only be reaching tat nite. Somemore, there are still a lot of stuffs tat i hadn't gotten for bb, myself, and so many food i'd like to consume b4 my confinement started (tho there weren't much choices left for me since i'd been diagnosed with gestational diabetes), and oso i hadn't gotten the stuffs i need to bring to hosp ready cox the luggage bag was way up above the cupboard and i had no one to get it down for me!
I tried to negotiate wid the doc, telling her tat i want to wait 4 my hubby to come back b4 i give birth. She told me tat i must deliver tat very day, either thru induced-labour or caesarean-section. The sound of c-sec really scares me and i wanted natural birth so badly, but it seems to be impossible now. No matter wat, doc told me i MUST be admitted to hospital now, and i shouldn't delay the process anymore because if not, i might go into fitting and worse, be in coma.
Part II *********************************************
All the while i was really feeling perfectly fine, so to me it really doesn't seems like an emergency. Around 6.30pm, i was admitted to KPJ (Kuching Specialist Hosp). After the registration process, i was given a bed and de standard patient clothing. I felt so funny wearing the robe cox i really do not feel sick at all. The nurses there took my blood pressure again and oso did another urine test for me. I had told Dr. Ng tat hubby will be reaching around 9pm tat nite, and i'll only decide whether to give birth or not after he arrives. Around 7+pm, the nurses there informed me tat Dr. Ng wanted to speak to me. She told me tat my condition had worsen, and my bp had climbed again compared to afternoon, and my urine still show traces of albumin. She advised me not to wait for my hubby anymore and i must be induced right then. Even if after i'm being induced, i might need to wait for several hours (min 4-6hrs) before the drug take effect, and signs of contractions might begin, and my cervix might dilate.
I still hesitated, and the doc insisted me to do it. She keep on telling me tat i might go into fitting. Finally i agreed to be induced. Doc told me tat the nurses there will insert the drug for me. If my cervix will dilate after drug was inserted, then i can give birth naturally. If not, they'll haf to operate me. :((
Seems like hell when the nurse inserted the drug into me... sigh... i really hope i can deliver naturally. After the drug was inserted, i had to lie on bed for 2hrs without moving around. The nurses there took my bp every half an hour. I lie there looking at the clock in front of me, and glanced at the blurred tv once in a while. After 2hrs had passed, i still felt no contraction. After 9pm, Dr. Ng came to the ward to see me. She measured my bp again, and seems like my bp is reaching 170 now. She asked if my husband had arrived, and she need to speak to him immediately. SH had juz got off the plane then, and rushed over to the hosp.
When hubby arrived, doc told him of my condition, and said i must not wait even to be induced anymore. She needs to operate me then as my bp seems to rocket every hour and it was for my own safety. I was blurred and really reluctant to be operated. SH told me to go for c-sec, and not to think too much anymore. They brought me some papers to sign, and hubby told me to listen and agree to watever the doc has to say.
Part III *********************************************
Doc say i need to be put on drip first and a sample of my blood will be sent to lab for test, and we need to wait for the result to come back b4 they can start the operation. Then the nightmare began... my blood was taken, the nurses inserted a tube into my uretra (it really HURTS... *_*"), my swollen hand was poke so tat i could be on drip. It hurts terribly especially since my hand had oledi swell so much, when the needle was poked thru my skin, it made my hand swell even more. Besides glucose, there was another pack of drug. The nurse told me tat it's to control my bp.
Around 11pm, my blood test result came back. The doc in charge for performing the anesthetic process came to speak to me. He advised me to choose to be totally unconscious during the operation since it'll be easier to monitor my bp. I guessed it's best for me, since i will be totally unaware of the whole process.
Then i was transfered to another bed. The process of transfering me made me felt even more nervous. I felt as if i was attached to so many things; the drip, my packet of urine, and i was really scared if the nurses might accidentally pull any of the tubes on me! After tat i was wheeled out from Room307 Bed A towards the OT. I felt so ackward... since i had taken off my specs, all i can really see was the row of white lights all the way down the hall to the OT. My mum, sis, hubby were accompanying me. I was really very nervous but i keep on telling myself tat i'll see my bb really soon. For the time being tat seems to be the only thing tat can comfort my fears.
When they reach the doors of the OT, the nurses told my family members tat they can proceed no longer and can only be waiting out there for me. They wheeled me in and again transfered me to another bed. This time they slipped a piece of steel board underneath my whole body and then carried me at the count off 3, to transfer me to another bed. It felt so cold that my teeth had started to clatter... i guess the air-cond, plus the steel bed, plus my nervousness really made me so, so, so cold. I was shaking so badly til i was unable to control my jaws from shaking too. "Oh God! When will all this be over?"
As they wheeled me into another room, the lights was even more blinding. Guess i'm lucky tat i haf short-sighted, and without my specs, i really couldn't figure out how the room was like. If not, i would haf felt even more nervous. I juz knew there were a lot of ppl in the room. Once again they transfered me to another bed. The whole process was really quick, and they start to hang up my arms and legs. I felt like an animal tat was about to be operated! As i turned my head towards my left, i saw a small figure all dressed up in a blue-coloured robe. Tat seems to be my gynae. Then the doc in charge of the anesthetic procedure was talking to me. I remembered he was trying to make me feel less nervous, and told me tat the OT was really very cold. I guessed from the way my whole body was shaking, anyone definately know tat i was feeling really COLD. The figure dressed in blue robe on my left was starting to walk towards me, and it was Dr. Ng. She was telling me to relax. They put a mask to my face and i was told to take deep breath. One.... Two... Three... i started to pass out.....
Part IV *********************************************
When i opened my eyes again, i saw my hubby in front of me. I asked him wat time it was, and felt tat i was kinda hard to speak. It was past 1.30am, and i noticed tat there was a tube attached to my nose. I glanced down at my tummy and it seems to haf deflated a little, though it still seems to be quite big. SH was telling me how brave i had been, and tat bb was safe and sound asleep in the next room. I questioned him about the tube from my nose, and he told me tat it was supplying oxygen. When they wheeled me out of the OT, he said i was having difficulty breathing and I seem to be wanting to throw up and making loud gasps. I totally had no idea as i was still unconscious then. The docs said it might be because of the anesthetic effect, so tat's why they put the oxygen tube to my nose. I felt really tired, and closed my eyes again to rest.
I can say those 2 days at the hospital really seems like eternal. My mind was blurred and i couldn't seem to remember things correctly when i was there. Perhaps it was the effect of all the drugs. All i could remembered was the pain after the painkiller was gone. Not only did i felt as if i had been cut open, i felt as if all my organs were being misplaced. For the first nite, i couldn't really rest well. I started to haf mild fever because the needle for the drip on my hand was really hurting me so badly. My hands were so swollen tat it doesn't even look like my own hand. (In fact my whole person was swelling so badly!) The nurses keep on coming in to give me injection on my thighs. They said it's to prevent blood clot.
I felt much better after i can be off from the drip. I didn't feel hungry at all, but my lips were very dry. When i had to swallow down the painkillers, i finally had to start to drink and tat's when it start to develop another kind of pain within me. I felt as if each trickle of water down my intestines was pinching the inside of my stomach. I could hardly move, so i couldn't squirm myself to take my pain away like i always do. I can only close my eyes and wish all the pain away. I really wonder why it starts to hurt tat way. When i consult the doc the next day, i was told tat my uterus was shrinking and sometimes tat process will hurt. To be frank, i really thought tat they had messed around wid my intestines! (if KC reads tis, i'm sure he'll laugh like hell!)
On the 2nd nite, i started to develop a funny kind of rashes all over my body. When hubby first saw it on my neck, i assumed it was only heat rash. Then when the nurses saw it, they checked my whole body only to find tat other parts of my body was also covered wid the funny looking cresent-like red spots. They start to ask me if i'm allergic to any medication, and i really had no idea. I told them towards the last 2 months of my pregnancy, i had developed all kinds of rashes so i really had no idea if it's skin allergy. The next morning they informed my doc, and Dr. Ng said she'll be calling in the skin specialist. It was Sun morning, and darn... i'm sure there'll be some additional charges.
When they called in a Dr. Lim, he was surveying my rashes and seemed to be so excited. He said he had never seen anything like tat before, (as if i'm some alien from Mars)... i still remembered him telling me "It's very interesting. I had never seen anything like this before. Do u mind if i call my colleague in to take a look at tis? He might be able to explain." So in come another Dr. Pubalan (my sis said he's a very good skin doctor) and said a sample of my blood shud be taken immediately as he suspect i might haf SLE (a disease tat normally attack young women and only discovered when the immune system is low - tat's wat the doc told me). I had no idea wat SLE is, but my sis said it's very serious. From the expression of their faces, i started to feel as if i might be warded even longer, and i really wan to go home! And i really DO NOT WANT to take any blood test anymore. All thru my pregnancy, my blood had been taken for tis purpose, tat purpose... and now tat i had finally delivered, they tell me they need to take my blood again! Oh God... when will all this suffering ends! I'm starting to hate needles so much... when will they stop pricking me wid all those needles!!!! ARGHHHHH................ tears start to well in my eyes.
Part V *********************************************
Another worry in my mind was the medical cost. Dr. Ng told me tat if i can get down from bed and go to toilet and pee after the urine bag was removed, then i can go home. The medical fees at KPJ for natural birth is RM2k+. The budget i had in mind originally was tat amount, but now i had to set my budget even higher. C-sec was normally charged around RM5k+ at KPJ, and the difference of RM3k, i could haf used tat amount to buy a lot of stuffs for my bb... or even consider stem cell storage. And now i'm using additional drugs to control my bp and all those injections, i'm sure they'll charge me even more. I asked my hubby to go and checked the medical fees. When he returned, the amount really made me jump. It was far beyond from wat we had budgeted... RM7k+! I told myself tat i must be discharged tat very day. Who knows one more nite might cost us how much.
The nurses told me i should start to exercise my limbs. At first i start to roll my body to my sides. The big bandage plaster on my stomach made my movement a bit difficult, but it also made me feel safer for i assumed tat it'll help to hold my 'opened tummy' together. I forced myself to sit up in my bed. The feeling of blood gushing to the lower part of my body made me swallowed my saliva, holding back the fainting feeling of pain. I told my hubby and sisters to help me to get down from my bed and to practice walking. As i got my feet of the bed to touch the ground, i start to feel the terrible pain from the wound. I told myself i must bear wid the pain... and i must start walking to the next room to see my baby. I start to stand up.... i felt the coldness of the floor creeping through my socks. The pain was too painful for me to bear but i told them to help to carry me a little, i must take a few steps forward. I could hardly lift my legs, i only pushed both my feet forward alternately, to make myself move forward.
Three steps forward and i start to feel faint. All my blood seems to flow from my face and head towards my feet, and the buzzing sound in my ears start to grow stronger. I couldn't hear the voices of my sisters and hubby. I'm fainting.... and they dragged me back to my bed for me to lie down. I was deaf and couldn't hear wat they was telling me, i could only see their mouth moving.
I had tried my very best, but i could only make 3 steps... not even to the next room to see my bb. ='(
Part VI *********************************************
Whatever it takes, i told myself tat i must be discharged tat very day. The fear of fainting again and oso the pang of pain, made me feel doubtful of my strong will. I rested again in order to regain my energy. Thinking back i hadn't really been eating since the pack of glucose had been removed. Not only did i had no appetite to eat, but the pain i'm feeling in the inside of me just made me feel tat i wanted to sleep in order to forget about it.
Hubby and sis all told me to eat sth so tat i'll haf the strength to get up from bed. I started to chomp on some crackers and drank hot milo and rested. I really feel so helpless. Somewhere around 1pm, i made myself get up again. I sat on my bed and put my legs down, nearly touching the ground, for a while. By tat time, my sisters had gone home. I wan to practice to walk again, and i really need to go to the bathroom. Hubby rang the bell to get some assistance from the nurses there, and together wid their help, i finally reached the bathroom. When i saw myself in the mirror, i couldn't recognise myself. My face was as white as sheet, i really had no idea i can be so pale and yet so swollen. Even looking at myself scares me. I guess i must haf lost a lot of blood. My once pinkish cheeks were gone. When i got my blood test report, my blood count was oledi below the average level before the operation. After the operation, it'd dropped by half again. No wonder i felt so weak. I had lost so much blood!
Tat Sunday afternoon, around 3.30pm, i was discharged. Luckily they wheeled me with a wheel chair down to the carpark. I really couldn't take tat many steps. All i wanted to do was to lie down in bed and rest, and hope the wound will heal soon. On the way home, even when the car pass by slightly uneven roads, my wound hurts terribly. I felt my tummy being so wobbly, and the wound feels like parting open. When i reached home, the worst part was to climb the stairs to my bedroom. Hubby was there slowly urging me on, going up the stairs. I took slow and very small steps. Feels like heaven when i finally get to rest on my own bed. This is the place i'll be for the following weeks during my confinement period. I'd better start getting use.
Tat nite, things were not going on so fine. The confinement lady hadn't arrived yet, and i really had no idea how to look after a baby. When Jayden cries, i feel myself so useless because i really couldn't get up to help. The wound was hurting me so bad, and with every effort of getting up from the bed, it made my wound hurts. Luckily SH was there, and before i had learnt how to change bb's dirty diapers, feed him, carry him; the daddy had oledi mastered all the skills. I couldn't even carry my own bb back then. I juz hope i'll be strong enuf soon...
"A snapshot of baby Jayden an hour after his birth."
It was Friday, 7th of September, and i was on my way to my mum's place when my hubby called. I was supposed to go for another checkup on the following day, and i haven't realised that it was a public holiday. Since i had noticed a drop in the number of kicks my bb made recently, i decided i should not wait over the weekend for my weekly checkup.
Mum needed my to accompany her to settle some of her stuffs tat morn, so i decided to go over to see the gynae later in the evening. Both my legs were badly swollen by then, and as a matter of fact, it had started to hurt when i drive. Though my tummy were so big then, I still drove myself over to see my gynae tat day. In my mind it was juz another checkup and it'll be over very soon.
Around 3+pm, i went over to Dr. Ng's clinic. After the normal urine test, i was required to do another urine test. Doc told me tat there was sign of albumin (protein) in my first urine test, and i had to do another test to confirm the result. In my mind, it juz seems so harmless cox i do not know of the consequences. After the 2nd test, it was confirmed of the albumin existence in my urine and the reading was quite high. I had no idea of the scale they used, but i remembered she told me tat it was '3+' and it was not a good sign. After that she took my blood pressure, and surprisingly my bp tat day was higher than normal exceeding 150. My bp had been normal all the while and it had never occured to me tat i'm having hypertension, and i'm feeling perfectly fine without any dizziness.
Doc told me tat i'm suffering from a condition called 'pre-eclampsia'. Well, since the term is juz another medical term for me, i had no idea how serious it can actually be. She told me i had to be admitted to hospital at tat moment on emergency basis, and i should give birth ASAP. I wasn't prepared for all this, hubby is still in KK and will only be reaching tat nite. Somemore, there are still a lot of stuffs tat i hadn't gotten for bb, myself, and so many food i'd like to consume b4 my confinement started (tho there weren't much choices left for me since i'd been diagnosed with gestational diabetes), and oso i hadn't gotten the stuffs i need to bring to hosp ready cox the luggage bag was way up above the cupboard and i had no one to get it down for me!
I tried to negotiate wid the doc, telling her tat i want to wait 4 my hubby to come back b4 i give birth. She told me tat i must deliver tat very day, either thru induced-labour or caesarean-section. The sound of c-sec really scares me and i wanted natural birth so badly, but it seems to be impossible now. No matter wat, doc told me i MUST be admitted to hospital now, and i shouldn't delay the process anymore because if not, i might go into fitting and worse, be in coma.
Part II *********************************************
All the while i was really feeling perfectly fine, so to me it really doesn't seems like an emergency. Around 6.30pm, i was admitted to KPJ (Kuching Specialist Hosp). After the registration process, i was given a bed and de standard patient clothing. I felt so funny wearing the robe cox i really do not feel sick at all. The nurses there took my blood pressure again and oso did another urine test for me. I had told Dr. Ng tat hubby will be reaching around 9pm tat nite, and i'll only decide whether to give birth or not after he arrives. Around 7+pm, the nurses there informed me tat Dr. Ng wanted to speak to me. She told me tat my condition had worsen, and my bp had climbed again compared to afternoon, and my urine still show traces of albumin. She advised me not to wait for my hubby anymore and i must be induced right then. Even if after i'm being induced, i might need to wait for several hours (min 4-6hrs) before the drug take effect, and signs of contractions might begin, and my cervix might dilate.
I still hesitated, and the doc insisted me to do it. She keep on telling me tat i might go into fitting. Finally i agreed to be induced. Doc told me tat the nurses there will insert the drug for me. If my cervix will dilate after drug was inserted, then i can give birth naturally. If not, they'll haf to operate me. :((
Seems like hell when the nurse inserted the drug into me... sigh... i really hope i can deliver naturally. After the drug was inserted, i had to lie on bed for 2hrs without moving around. The nurses there took my bp every half an hour. I lie there looking at the clock in front of me, and glanced at the blurred tv once in a while. After 2hrs had passed, i still felt no contraction. After 9pm, Dr. Ng came to the ward to see me. She measured my bp again, and seems like my bp is reaching 170 now. She asked if my husband had arrived, and she need to speak to him immediately. SH had juz got off the plane then, and rushed over to the hosp.
When hubby arrived, doc told him of my condition, and said i must not wait even to be induced anymore. She needs to operate me then as my bp seems to rocket every hour and it was for my own safety. I was blurred and really reluctant to be operated. SH told me to go for c-sec, and not to think too much anymore. They brought me some papers to sign, and hubby told me to listen and agree to watever the doc has to say.
Part III *********************************************
Doc say i need to be put on drip first and a sample of my blood will be sent to lab for test, and we need to wait for the result to come back b4 they can start the operation. Then the nightmare began... my blood was taken, the nurses inserted a tube into my uretra (it really HURTS... *_*"), my swollen hand was poke so tat i could be on drip. It hurts terribly especially since my hand had oledi swell so much, when the needle was poked thru my skin, it made my hand swell even more. Besides glucose, there was another pack of drug. The nurse told me tat it's to control my bp.
Around 11pm, my blood test result came back. The doc in charge for performing the anesthetic process came to speak to me. He advised me to choose to be totally unconscious during the operation since it'll be easier to monitor my bp. I guessed it's best for me, since i will be totally unaware of the whole process.
Then i was transfered to another bed. The process of transfering me made me felt even more nervous. I felt as if i was attached to so many things; the drip, my packet of urine, and i was really scared if the nurses might accidentally pull any of the tubes on me! After tat i was wheeled out from Room307 Bed A towards the OT. I felt so ackward... since i had taken off my specs, all i can really see was the row of white lights all the way down the hall to the OT. My mum, sis, hubby were accompanying me. I was really very nervous but i keep on telling myself tat i'll see my bb really soon. For the time being tat seems to be the only thing tat can comfort my fears.
When they reach the doors of the OT, the nurses told my family members tat they can proceed no longer and can only be waiting out there for me. They wheeled me in and again transfered me to another bed. This time they slipped a piece of steel board underneath my whole body and then carried me at the count off 3, to transfer me to another bed. It felt so cold that my teeth had started to clatter... i guess the air-cond, plus the steel bed, plus my nervousness really made me so, so, so cold. I was shaking so badly til i was unable to control my jaws from shaking too. "Oh God! When will all this be over?"
As they wheeled me into another room, the lights was even more blinding. Guess i'm lucky tat i haf short-sighted, and without my specs, i really couldn't figure out how the room was like. If not, i would haf felt even more nervous. I juz knew there were a lot of ppl in the room. Once again they transfered me to another bed. The whole process was really quick, and they start to hang up my arms and legs. I felt like an animal tat was about to be operated! As i turned my head towards my left, i saw a small figure all dressed up in a blue-coloured robe. Tat seems to be my gynae. Then the doc in charge of the anesthetic procedure was talking to me. I remembered he was trying to make me feel less nervous, and told me tat the OT was really very cold. I guessed from the way my whole body was shaking, anyone definately know tat i was feeling really COLD. The figure dressed in blue robe on my left was starting to walk towards me, and it was Dr. Ng. She was telling me to relax. They put a mask to my face and i was told to take deep breath. One.... Two... Three... i started to pass out.....
Part IV *********************************************
When i opened my eyes again, i saw my hubby in front of me. I asked him wat time it was, and felt tat i was kinda hard to speak. It was past 1.30am, and i noticed tat there was a tube attached to my nose. I glanced down at my tummy and it seems to haf deflated a little, though it still seems to be quite big. SH was telling me how brave i had been, and tat bb was safe and sound asleep in the next room. I questioned him about the tube from my nose, and he told me tat it was supplying oxygen. When they wheeled me out of the OT, he said i was having difficulty breathing and I seem to be wanting to throw up and making loud gasps. I totally had no idea as i was still unconscious then. The docs said it might be because of the anesthetic effect, so tat's why they put the oxygen tube to my nose. I felt really tired, and closed my eyes again to rest.
I can say those 2 days at the hospital really seems like eternal. My mind was blurred and i couldn't seem to remember things correctly when i was there. Perhaps it was the effect of all the drugs. All i could remembered was the pain after the painkiller was gone. Not only did i felt as if i had been cut open, i felt as if all my organs were being misplaced. For the first nite, i couldn't really rest well. I started to haf mild fever because the needle for the drip on my hand was really hurting me so badly. My hands were so swollen tat it doesn't even look like my own hand. (In fact my whole person was swelling so badly!) The nurses keep on coming in to give me injection on my thighs. They said it's to prevent blood clot.
I felt much better after i can be off from the drip. I didn't feel hungry at all, but my lips were very dry. When i had to swallow down the painkillers, i finally had to start to drink and tat's when it start to develop another kind of pain within me. I felt as if each trickle of water down my intestines was pinching the inside of my stomach. I could hardly move, so i couldn't squirm myself to take my pain away like i always do. I can only close my eyes and wish all the pain away. I really wonder why it starts to hurt tat way. When i consult the doc the next day, i was told tat my uterus was shrinking and sometimes tat process will hurt. To be frank, i really thought tat they had messed around wid my intestines! (if KC reads tis, i'm sure he'll laugh like hell!)
On the 2nd nite, i started to develop a funny kind of rashes all over my body. When hubby first saw it on my neck, i assumed it was only heat rash. Then when the nurses saw it, they checked my whole body only to find tat other parts of my body was also covered wid the funny looking cresent-like red spots. They start to ask me if i'm allergic to any medication, and i really had no idea. I told them towards the last 2 months of my pregnancy, i had developed all kinds of rashes so i really had no idea if it's skin allergy. The next morning they informed my doc, and Dr. Ng said she'll be calling in the skin specialist. It was Sun morning, and darn... i'm sure there'll be some additional charges.
When they called in a Dr. Lim, he was surveying my rashes and seemed to be so excited. He said he had never seen anything like tat before, (as if i'm some alien from Mars)... i still remembered him telling me "It's very interesting. I had never seen anything like this before. Do u mind if i call my colleague in to take a look at tis? He might be able to explain." So in come another Dr. Pubalan (my sis said he's a very good skin doctor) and said a sample of my blood shud be taken immediately as he suspect i might haf SLE (a disease tat normally attack young women and only discovered when the immune system is low - tat's wat the doc told me). I had no idea wat SLE is, but my sis said it's very serious. From the expression of their faces, i started to feel as if i might be warded even longer, and i really wan to go home! And i really DO NOT WANT to take any blood test anymore. All thru my pregnancy, my blood had been taken for tis purpose, tat purpose... and now tat i had finally delivered, they tell me they need to take my blood again! Oh God... when will all this suffering ends! I'm starting to hate needles so much... when will they stop pricking me wid all those needles!!!! ARGHHHHH................ tears start to well in my eyes.
Part V *********************************************
Another worry in my mind was the medical cost. Dr. Ng told me tat if i can get down from bed and go to toilet and pee after the urine bag was removed, then i can go home. The medical fees at KPJ for natural birth is RM2k+. The budget i had in mind originally was tat amount, but now i had to set my budget even higher. C-sec was normally charged around RM5k+ at KPJ, and the difference of RM3k, i could haf used tat amount to buy a lot of stuffs for my bb... or even consider stem cell storage. And now i'm using additional drugs to control my bp and all those injections, i'm sure they'll charge me even more. I asked my hubby to go and checked the medical fees. When he returned, the amount really made me jump. It was far beyond from wat we had budgeted... RM7k+! I told myself tat i must be discharged tat very day. Who knows one more nite might cost us how much.
The nurses told me i should start to exercise my limbs. At first i start to roll my body to my sides. The big bandage plaster on my stomach made my movement a bit difficult, but it also made me feel safer for i assumed tat it'll help to hold my 'opened tummy' together. I forced myself to sit up in my bed. The feeling of blood gushing to the lower part of my body made me swallowed my saliva, holding back the fainting feeling of pain. I told my hubby and sisters to help me to get down from my bed and to practice walking. As i got my feet of the bed to touch the ground, i start to feel the terrible pain from the wound. I told myself i must bear wid the pain... and i must start walking to the next room to see my baby. I start to stand up.... i felt the coldness of the floor creeping through my socks. The pain was too painful for me to bear but i told them to help to carry me a little, i must take a few steps forward. I could hardly lift my legs, i only pushed both my feet forward alternately, to make myself move forward.
Three steps forward and i start to feel faint. All my blood seems to flow from my face and head towards my feet, and the buzzing sound in my ears start to grow stronger. I couldn't hear the voices of my sisters and hubby. I'm fainting.... and they dragged me back to my bed for me to lie down. I was deaf and couldn't hear wat they was telling me, i could only see their mouth moving.
I had tried my very best, but i could only make 3 steps... not even to the next room to see my bb. ='(
Part VI *********************************************
Whatever it takes, i told myself tat i must be discharged tat very day. The fear of fainting again and oso the pang of pain, made me feel doubtful of my strong will. I rested again in order to regain my energy. Thinking back i hadn't really been eating since the pack of glucose had been removed. Not only did i had no appetite to eat, but the pain i'm feeling in the inside of me just made me feel tat i wanted to sleep in order to forget about it.
Hubby and sis all told me to eat sth so tat i'll haf the strength to get up from bed. I started to chomp on some crackers and drank hot milo and rested. I really feel so helpless. Somewhere around 1pm, i made myself get up again. I sat on my bed and put my legs down, nearly touching the ground, for a while. By tat time, my sisters had gone home. I wan to practice to walk again, and i really need to go to the bathroom. Hubby rang the bell to get some assistance from the nurses there, and together wid their help, i finally reached the bathroom. When i saw myself in the mirror, i couldn't recognise myself. My face was as white as sheet, i really had no idea i can be so pale and yet so swollen. Even looking at myself scares me. I guess i must haf lost a lot of blood. My once pinkish cheeks were gone. When i got my blood test report, my blood count was oledi below the average level before the operation. After the operation, it'd dropped by half again. No wonder i felt so weak. I had lost so much blood!
Tat Sunday afternoon, around 3.30pm, i was discharged. Luckily they wheeled me with a wheel chair down to the carpark. I really couldn't take tat many steps. All i wanted to do was to lie down in bed and rest, and hope the wound will heal soon. On the way home, even when the car pass by slightly uneven roads, my wound hurts terribly. I felt my tummy being so wobbly, and the wound feels like parting open. When i reached home, the worst part was to climb the stairs to my bedroom. Hubby was there slowly urging me on, going up the stairs. I took slow and very small steps. Feels like heaven when i finally get to rest on my own bed. This is the place i'll be for the following weeks during my confinement period. I'd better start getting use.
Tat nite, things were not going on so fine. The confinement lady hadn't arrived yet, and i really had no idea how to look after a baby. When Jayden cries, i feel myself so useless because i really couldn't get up to help. The wound was hurting me so bad, and with every effort of getting up from the bed, it made my wound hurts. Luckily SH was there, and before i had learnt how to change bb's dirty diapers, feed him, carry him; the daddy had oledi mastered all the skills. I couldn't even carry my own bb back then. I juz hope i'll be strong enuf soon...
3/23/2007
roses are red!
It'd been really, really long since i posted sth here. A lot had been happening in my life lately, and i juz couldn't find the appropriate time to do some of my updates here. My life had been really hectic before this, with my wedding rush and also the CNY rush... only now everything seems to be back to its normal pace.
20th January 2007 - This is the date where the verse "roses are red" really came to life. This is my bouquet of "99 red roses". It wasn't easy trying to get so many red roses, as valentine's day was nearing then, he really went all the way to get the roses for me. He told himself that once he'd accumulated 99 roses, he'll fly all the way back and propose. To every florist shop he went, none can give him tat much red roses as it exceeded the normal stock that they haf daily, since flowers don't last long. Finally, he drove all the way up to Mt. KK and made stops along the way and bought all the red roses he could get his hands on. He bought more than 160 roses, estimating some will be spoilt when he bring them home.
On the 20th, it happened to fall on a public holiday. Most florist shops in town were closed. He went out early and waited for the shops to open, and finally found a shop tat was still opened for business that day. But all the gals in the shop said only one gal in the shop had the skill to wrap up such a big bouquet of roses. If she agrees to do it, only then they can help him. If not, they'll haf to say sorry. He begged her to do it for him, and at last she agreed to help him though they were really busy tat day.
... "This is of course the first time in my life that i'd received so many roses... 99 roses to resemble everlasting love. The truth is the flowers doesn't matter at all. I'm not a bubbleheaded gal who'll be thrilled with a few stalks of flowers or sweet talk. I guess in a gal's life what is the most important thing is how much and how far a guy is wiling to go for her.... sacrifices he is wiling to make for you. For a guy who carries the importance of himself ahead of you, how far will you be wiling to go for him?
Lots of things in life will never happen for a second time. If you let it slipped, you just might never be able to catch it again!"
1/18/2007
=)
Last Tuesday nite, i finally got my share of money from my participation in PowerMoves last year. I was soooo happy, because the money came about the right time since CNY is juz around the corner, and there's a lot of extra expenses tat i'll need to spend on, such as not only in getting new clothes for myself, but oso for my youngest sis & perhaps my bro n mummy as well, then need to give ang pow to mummy n buy some of the goodies for my family. Somemore i still need to pay for the airfare tickets which we'd bought since AirAsia is giving out free tickets, n we only need to pay for the airport taxes, so sis & I had decided to bring mum for a short trip to KK in May. At least it's a trip tat i can afford to bring her along, since i can save up on transportation and maybe accomodation too.
The money tat i'd got from Ah Ma was enough to pay for my air tickets to KL and Bangkok. =) Not only was i proud of myself, but i am oso feeling contented for being able to settle the airtickets without using my savings. Hooray! The money was sort of 'hard-earned' money, tat's why when i got it, i felt really happy! =)
Last nite we did another performance for KFC Annual Dinner. The theme was 'The Last Samurai' and everyone dressed up in their japanese attire. The dinner was held at Riverside Sarawak Chamber, and for the first time in my life i actually saw a dinner held in Swak Chamber wid all the guests sitting down on the floor, on floor mat, wid the dining table positioned juz a little above the ground. It was supposed to be japanese style, so the hall had been decorated to make everyone feel as if they are in Japan. =) Another exciting experience for myself. However i really pitied the waiters & waitresses for having to kneel down when they need to refill guest's drinks and when they carried out the dishes. I tot of taking some snapshots of the hall before the event started but wasn't able to find the time to. Hopefully i can get some exciting snapshots to be shared here in my blogs from the others soon!
The money tat i'd got from Ah Ma was enough to pay for my air tickets to KL and Bangkok. =) Not only was i proud of myself, but i am oso feeling contented for being able to settle the airtickets without using my savings. Hooray! The money was sort of 'hard-earned' money, tat's why when i got it, i felt really happy! =)
Last nite we did another performance for KFC Annual Dinner. The theme was 'The Last Samurai' and everyone dressed up in their japanese attire. The dinner was held at Riverside Sarawak Chamber, and for the first time in my life i actually saw a dinner held in Swak Chamber wid all the guests sitting down on the floor, on floor mat, wid the dining table positioned juz a little above the ground. It was supposed to be japanese style, so the hall had been decorated to make everyone feel as if they are in Japan. =) Another exciting experience for myself. However i really pitied the waiters & waitresses for having to kneel down when they need to refill guest's drinks and when they carried out the dishes. I tot of taking some snapshots of the hall before the event started but wasn't able to find the time to. Hopefully i can get some exciting snapshots to be shared here in my blogs from the others soon!
1/04/2007
WELCOME 2007
Another new year... wow, how fast time flies! Sometimes at the pace everything's going, i really feel i haf such little time left. hiewming, thanx for keep on 'tuning' in to my blog! ah Yi called me tat day to ask me about sth, and she said u commented tat i must be pretty busy lately cox i hadn't updated my blog for quite some time. U r partly right... i am busy, but other than tat i was quite lazy too. There are some new features in blogger... hmm... i still need some more time to find out about it!
Xmas 2006 i was in Kota Kinabalu. i had a nice holiday there, had plenty of good food to eat and plenty of rest. Went on shopping spree, and my 'tauke' paid for everything. He said this year he wont be able to accompany me to get my new year clothes, so i better buy it first when he's around. I really feel like i din shop for such a long time, and everything seems to be just wat i wanted to get for myself! Siewhung said sth tat made me feel so touched, if i say tis in front of nb, for sure he'll say i try to 'tipu' siewhung again. ;))
The truth is i really feel bad if he spend too much on me. I know how it's owest so difficult to buy stuffs for urself and when it comes to the things u wanted, u'll really think it over whether it's worth ur money. But then when u r getting it for others, u just spend without thinking. His reply was if he knows i'll look good if i get to dress up n if he was to think of not wasting his money in buying me clothes n accessories, he'll feel bad.
oh ya, the xmas tree in Casuarina was beautiful. He decorated it all by himself. I owest love xmas tree... and when i went over, i got 2 more rolls of ribbon for the tree. The red & gold ribbons around the tree, made it looked so fabulous. Somemore with all those red ornament balls around it, the colour was a great match.
On top of the tree was 2 golden bells. If it's really my tree, i'll put an angel on top of the tree. It made me think of the story i used to read when i was young, where the toys or decos on the tree will owest fight in order to be on top of the tree. ;)) At nite when everyone is asleep, the toys will come to life. It'll be their world then, and they will depend on themselves to climb to a better position on the tree. Is tat how the decos on trees owest seems to be in different places one day or another?
Such a fairytale....
Here are some photos tat i'll like to share. We went to Kundasang.
It's the farm for all the Desa milking cows. The cows are really black & white in colour, juz like the ones we used to read in storybooks or watched in cartoons. They are so cute, and they are real! It felt as if u r really in NewZealand.
The photos of the delicacies tat i had managed to take. I really ate a lot... these are not even til half of wat i actually had there. I love the fish head bihun, and finally i got to taste the fish noodles.... the noodles are being made out of fresh fish meat. This time in KK, i finally get to taste the 'tung fung' clams. I think i still prefer elephant trunk clams better... though they are all great for a seafood lover like myself!
hiewming, i hope u'll find wat i had to share here interesting. i miss all of u lo.... n i wanna see how big is karhooi's tummy now! take k!
Finally a snapshot of me in Kundasang! Looks like i'm in NZ!
Xmas 2006 i was in Kota Kinabalu. i had a nice holiday there, had plenty of good food to eat and plenty of rest. Went on shopping spree, and my 'tauke' paid for everything. He said this year he wont be able to accompany me to get my new year clothes, so i better buy it first when he's around. I really feel like i din shop for such a long time, and everything seems to be just wat i wanted to get for myself! Siewhung said sth tat made me feel so touched, if i say tis in front of nb, for sure he'll say i try to 'tipu' siewhung again. ;))
The truth is i really feel bad if he spend too much on me. I know how it's owest so difficult to buy stuffs for urself and when it comes to the things u wanted, u'll really think it over whether it's worth ur money. But then when u r getting it for others, u just spend without thinking. His reply was if he knows i'll look good if i get to dress up n if he was to think of not wasting his money in buying me clothes n accessories, he'll feel bad.
oh ya, the xmas tree in Casuarina was beautiful. He decorated it all by himself. I owest love xmas tree... and when i went over, i got 2 more rolls of ribbon for the tree. The red & gold ribbons around the tree, made it looked so fabulous. Somemore with all those red ornament balls around it, the colour was a great match.On top of the tree was 2 golden bells. If it's really my tree, i'll put an angel on top of the tree. It made me think of the story i used to read when i was young, where the toys or decos on the tree will owest fight in order to be on top of the tree. ;)) At nite when everyone is asleep, the toys will come to life. It'll be their world then, and they will depend on themselves to climb to a better position on the tree. Is tat how the decos on trees owest seems to be in different places one day or another?
Such a fairytale....
Here are some photos tat i'll like to share. We went to Kundasang.
It's the farm for all the Desa milking cows. The cows are really black & white in colour, juz like the ones we used to read in storybooks or watched in cartoons. They are so cute, and they are real! It felt as if u r really in NewZealand.
The photos of the delicacies tat i had managed to take. I really ate a lot... these are not even til half of wat i actually had there. I love the fish head bihun, and finally i got to taste the fish noodles.... the noodles are being made out of fresh fish meat. This time in KK, i finally get to taste the 'tung fung' clams. I think i still prefer elephant trunk clams better... though they are all great for a seafood lover like myself!hiewming, i hope u'll find wat i had to share here interesting. i miss all of u lo.... n i wanna see how big is karhooi's tummy now! take k!
Finally a snapshot of me in Kundasang! Looks like i'm in NZ!
12/18/2006
we r one family!
I wanna do this for a long, long time. I wanna add my bear bear collection into my blog. These are part of my collection, n i din get the whole bear family to snap the family photo cox some are up on the cupboard, wrapped in plastic wrappers n the wrappers were full of dust!
Hopefully next time i'll be hardworking enuf to group all my pals in for the BIG FAMILY PHOTO taking session!
Following is a pic of the wedding bear! My fave forever friends bear!
Hopefully next time i'll be hardworking enuf to group all my pals in for the BIG FAMILY PHOTO taking session!
Following is a pic of the wedding bear! My fave forever friends bear!
12/04/2006
my siblings!
It'd been quite sometime since my house is this packed again. Lately bro & sisters are all back from uni, with all of us grown up now, sometimes it really seems like my good ol' house is getting much & much smaller to accomodate all of us now. Imagine when we were younger, we used to run here & there playing inside the house, and the house is forever noisy.. be it with happy laughters or angry voices when we quarreled!
With bro & the twins away in uni, and wid big sis married now, the house do seems to be quite peaceful at times. Sometimes mum even commented tat it was hard to prepare meal for juz 3 persons (youngest sis, mum & me)! ;))
Tho the house is kinda packed now, it does feel good having them all back for holidays. We were back to our noisy & crazy laughters days. This is wat happened when u haf too many sisters at home.... we would pry on wat new clothing or accesories each other got, share tales about their uni life, and oso sharing ridiculous jokes and bombard the house with our hysterical laughters. =)
Actually all my sisters (not include bro) had infectious laughters, we owest laugh so hard at even the tiniest jokes!
Last Fri nite, i made konnyaku. Had promised mum tat i'll make konnyaku when i'm free, and wid a lot of ppl in the house now, it's juz the perfect timing to be making small treats for them. Sat afternoon, it was 'sushi making session' for my family. Hee... we had lots of fun, trying to teach my sisters how to roll nice sushi... and wat ingredients to prepare for. After sushi making, we had 'durian eating' session! But tat'll haf to exclude bro, cox he doesn't like durians! *_* "'
Tat nite, we went out for a family dinner at RH Plaza. Told mum tat it was my treat, as i'm earning my own dime now, and i rarely had the chance to treat all of them together. As long as everyone is happy and having a good time together, i don mind. Little Esther went for dinner as well, and tis little baby really like to eat rice a lot. Even before the meal was being served, she was saying her usual "mum-mum-mum" slogan repeatedly, and begging pitifully wid teary eyes for sth to eat! Another 'tham chiak' gal!!! ;))
Tho i'm owest being known as the bad-tempered sis and domineering sis at home, i know they love me very much.... and i luv u all very much too! It's a gift given by God for us to be siblings, and all the hardships we had gone thru together from young til now, reminding us tat we need to cherish our time together even more when we are still able to do so!
With bro & the twins away in uni, and wid big sis married now, the house do seems to be quite peaceful at times. Sometimes mum even commented tat it was hard to prepare meal for juz 3 persons (youngest sis, mum & me)! ;))
Tho the house is kinda packed now, it does feel good having them all back for holidays. We were back to our noisy & crazy laughters days. This is wat happened when u haf too many sisters at home.... we would pry on wat new clothing or accesories each other got, share tales about their uni life, and oso sharing ridiculous jokes and bombard the house with our hysterical laughters. =)
Actually all my sisters (not include bro) had infectious laughters, we owest laugh so hard at even the tiniest jokes!
Last Fri nite, i made konnyaku. Had promised mum tat i'll make konnyaku when i'm free, and wid a lot of ppl in the house now, it's juz the perfect timing to be making small treats for them. Sat afternoon, it was 'sushi making session' for my family. Hee... we had lots of fun, trying to teach my sisters how to roll nice sushi... and wat ingredients to prepare for. After sushi making, we had 'durian eating' session! But tat'll haf to exclude bro, cox he doesn't like durians! *_* "'
Tat nite, we went out for a family dinner at RH Plaza. Told mum tat it was my treat, as i'm earning my own dime now, and i rarely had the chance to treat all of them together. As long as everyone is happy and having a good time together, i don mind. Little Esther went for dinner as well, and tis little baby really like to eat rice a lot. Even before the meal was being served, she was saying her usual "mum-mum-mum" slogan repeatedly, and begging pitifully wid teary eyes for sth to eat! Another 'tham chiak' gal!!! ;))
Tho i'm owest being known as the bad-tempered sis and domineering sis at home, i know they love me very much.... and i luv u all very much too! It's a gift given by God for us to be siblings, and all the hardships we had gone thru together from young til now, reminding us tat we need to cherish our time together even more when we are still able to do so!
11/29/2006
durian feast #2
23rd Nov 2006 ~ Thurs nite, and we had a small gathering at mek's place for a promised durian feast no.2 . Tonite was fun.... earlier on i had went to piang's house to pick her and we went shopping at Choice Daily for sushi ingredient. We had planned to haf a sushi making session at her house the coming Sat, so we need to shop for the ingredients first.
After tat at around 9pm, nb came to pick me & piang to go over to mek's place. Her daddy had purposely went to HuiSing to buy durians for kiang. Tho it's juz the start of durians season, n the durians r more expensive, mek's daddy still insist on buying the durians for kiang, since he's back in town. ;))
kiang, u must be very very touched by our sincerity lo. As for nb, tho he doesn't eat durians, he purposely go 'tapau' KFC for himself. hee.... he said we got durians to eat, so he eat KFC. But mek mek oso ask her bf to go ta pau 'sio-bee' and 'ang tau peng' for nb lo.... mek mek is forever so sweet!
The durians tat nite were nice. Look at the size of the durians! So big! The size of a palm.... i din get to eat tat. I wonder who did? Was it nice???? If really tat big, n taste nice n wid tiny durian seed, ONE will be enuf for me! WAH!!! yummy....
^^ too bad peishan wasn't around tat nite. peishan, we miss u lo! tat nite piang miss u like crazy, n she sez she feel like wanna hug u tightly if she sees u lo!
After tat at around 9pm, nb came to pick me & piang to go over to mek's place. Her daddy had purposely went to HuiSing to buy durians for kiang. Tho it's juz the start of durians season, n the durians r more expensive, mek's daddy still insist on buying the durians for kiang, since he's back in town. ;))
kiang, u must be very very touched by our sincerity lo. As for nb, tho he doesn't eat durians, he purposely go 'tapau' KFC for himself. hee.... he said we got durians to eat, so he eat KFC. But mek mek oso ask her bf to go ta pau 'sio-bee' and 'ang tau peng' for nb lo.... mek mek is forever so sweet!
The durians tat nite were nice. Look at the size of the durians! So big! The size of a palm.... i din get to eat tat. I wonder who did? Was it nice???? If really tat big, n taste nice n wid tiny durian seed, ONE will be enuf for me! WAH!!! yummy....
^^ too bad peishan wasn't around tat nite. peishan, we miss u lo! tat nite piang miss u like crazy, n she sez she feel like wanna hug u tightly if she sees u lo!
11/21/2006
dance Fiesta 2006
18th Nov 2006 ~ Last Saturday nite we had another performance. It was for an event called Dance Fiesta 2006, held at Merdeka Palace, Kuching. The song we used was 'NSync - Dirty Pop'. The event was very grand, with a lot of different groups performing their dance which includes belly dancing, hip hop, and etc. All the gals really dressed up themselves, and everyone looked so elegant...
Everything went fine during our performance... well, not really tat fine. Somewhere thru the ending part of the song, the CD suddenly skipped, and a part of the song was totally lost. Luckily for some real fast reflex from the rest, we managed to response to the unexpected and unavoidable mistake, and still performed til the end. Phew! Though we din managed to stage out wat we had initially practiced for, at least the whole performance wasn't being ruined because of either the faulty CD or PA system.
What we wore tat nite!
We had a lot of fun after tat snapping group photos in one of the rooms tat had been rented out for us to change and to wait for our turn on stage. We posed lotsssssss of silly poses, and laughed so much.... i hope the room was sound-proofed, cox we definately were VERY noisy! haha :)~
Everything went fine during our performance... well, not really tat fine. Somewhere thru the ending part of the song, the CD suddenly skipped, and a part of the song was totally lost. Luckily for some real fast reflex from the rest, we managed to response to the unexpected and unavoidable mistake, and still performed til the end. Phew! Though we din managed to stage out wat we had initially practiced for, at least the whole performance wasn't being ruined because of either the faulty CD or PA system.
We had a lot of fun after tat snapping group photos in one of the rooms tat had been rented out for us to change and to wait for our turn on stage. We posed lotsssssss of silly poses, and laughed so much.... i hope the room was sound-proofed, cox we definately were VERY noisy! haha :)~
11/10/2006
Weekend!
It's Friday again, and this week is nearly over. Weekend is coming again... yippee! How time flies! Lately i owest look forward to weekend, because then it's time again to hiaw wid piang. hahaha...
Last weekend was quite a packed one. I had fun, and my weekend was fully used. Wat did I do last weekend???
Summary:-
Last weekend was quite a packed one. I had fun, and my weekend was fully used. Wat did I do last weekend???
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| Went wid frens to Saberkas Ground Flr. to watch performance by de 2 kuchingites who had previously emerged as stars from de program 'Project Superstar (Msia) 2005'. There were quite a number of celebrities there tat nite; there's Gary from 8TV, Ray from the "Ho Chiak" tv show, and of cuz not forgeting Superstar Ah John, as well as runner-up Vincent. Project Superstar 2006 will start the very next day, and they were hoping more will go for the audition at Harbour View the next day... | ||
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| 8pm ~ We planned for BBQ tat nite at Ah Ma's house. It's oledi 8pm, and most of us are fainting wid hunger and yet we cant start eating first, cox we need to wait for VIPsssssss..... =( since it's a potluck dinner cum BBQ, we did prepared some food tat nite. Some brought satays, curry, 'popia', sushi, pizza, 'agar-agar',... wat a feast! i made konnyaku!!! | ||
| Chatting around, "gossiping", with the kepos from PowerMoves... hahahaaa... oops... It was an after meal chat, since we were too free, nothing much we can do. We were playing around, joking, practice our singing & vocal, practice our acting skills or practicing 'exaggerated' facial expressions, as well as practicing our sense of humours! ;> These are the "super-hiaw" frens, tat are experts in posing. Once there is a camera shutter pointing at us, "~POOF~" there will be an automatic pose from everyone. "TA-DA!!" | ||
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| Sun ~ 5th Nov 2006 | ||
| Came back home late the nite before, and after my bath it was oledi almost 0230am. Tot i could catch a few more hours of sleep on Sun morn, but nb called early morning, asking me to join the rest for breakfast. I was blur when i answered the fon, not quite understand wat he wanted... haha... i guess nb was too happy coming back from KL, and i know he misses us terribly. I tot of not joining them for breakfast at first, but since he had successfully disturbed my sleep, i couldn't get back to sleep. So i called back and told him to come n pick me for breakfast too. Went wid the rest to 4th Mile Expert, and i guess everyone can see how lack of sleep i was! Tat afternoon we went to Star Cineplex for movie. We planned to watch de cartoon "Flushed Away". After we bought the tickets, there were still a few minutes left before the movie. So we walked around Star. Tot of singing a few songs first at the K-Box but it was terribly packed. =( we saw a really cute hat, and tat hiaw nb tried it on, right in front of the salesgirl. Actually i wanted to try it on too, but don't haf as much guts as he does. | ||
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10/26/2006
i've got new pillow!
kc, nb & piang came back from Kota Kinabalu last nite. They are really great! they managed to reach the peak of Mt.KK.... something tat will definately be so tough for me. But i'm really proud of ah Piang... wid her condition, she still can reach the peak. She must haf very strong determination in herself! Well done, Piang! Hooray!!!
nb came over to my place after midnite last nite to pass me my new pillow. Knowing tat he had brought the wrong pillow back the last time, siewhung purposely went to buy another Akemi Gingko pillow for me. This time is the correct one... wid the gingko leaves smell on the new pillow. nb said he actually planned to give it to me today, so tat he can use the pillow last nite.... arghh... i don wan my pillow to haf 'tuko' smell boh.... hee....
He really wanted me to have tat pillow, hoping tat it can help to cure my frequent migraines & headaches. So sweet of him, but need to trouble the others to bring such a big gift back for me. KC, nb told me u got 'curi-curi' hug my pillow ar.....
anyway, thanks to all my piggies frens for the trouble, and i'm glad that u all had a wonderful time! How i wished i could had been there!
nb came over to my place after midnite last nite to pass me my new pillow. Knowing tat he had brought the wrong pillow back the last time, siewhung purposely went to buy another Akemi Gingko pillow for me. This time is the correct one... wid the gingko leaves smell on the new pillow. nb said he actually planned to give it to me today, so tat he can use the pillow last nite.... arghh... i don wan my pillow to haf 'tuko' smell boh.... hee....
He really wanted me to have tat pillow, hoping tat it can help to cure my frequent migraines & headaches. So sweet of him, but need to trouble the others to bring such a big gift back for me. KC, nb told me u got 'curi-curi' hug my pillow ar.....
anyway, thanks to all my piggies frens for the trouble, and i'm glad that u all had a wonderful time! How i wished i could had been there!
10/19/2006
my birthday 2006
Today is my birthday... how old am i??? 18 forever... wahahaha
Well, though my birthday is today, I'd oledi been celebrating it for the past 2 days. Feel very grateful and really thanks to all my frens around me who luv me so much, as well as those frens who are faraway who tot of me. I really feel special, getting so much attention from everyone. Even when i went to bed last nite, past midnite, i was beaming to myself on my bed. Hee.... so silly!
Birthday Celebration Part 1
17th Oct, Tues ~ As usual i went for my dancing class at PowerMoves tonite. Wah... it was extremely tired, since i think we had been lagging behind, and not really put tat much effort in dancing lately. But tonite was different... everyone was so serious, and the class seems to be packed & lively since we haf 2 newcomers to join us tonite. Though i was really tired, I was glad tat i really exercised cox seldom sweat lately. renhao mentioned tat chikeng is really a good dance choreographer, cox she really pinpoint all the mistakes tat we made, and intend to 'catch' either our extra or lack of movements. Yes, I really admit tat she's good. After class, we had a little bday celebration... my bday celebration, to be more precise... hee.... and they sang me the bday songsssss, i cut the cake & we enjoyed our yummy cheese cake!
I think it shud be New York cheese cake... thank you dearest AH MA for ur effort and oso to all my dearest frens from PowerMoves, and thank you Ah Hian for ur bday wish tat sez "kuai gao zhang da"... haha... if really still can grow, well... i can grow a little taller lo, but i don wan to "zhang da" anymore lo.... i'm oledi very big-sized liao wor... heee... still "zhang da" somemore will be 'giant' lo among u guys!!!
18th Oct, Wed ~ Tonite mum & sis to bring me out for dinner. They wanna treat me for my bday. Actually they wanted to bring me out on 19th nite, but i told them i wont be free. So we all agreed on 18th nite. They asked me to pick a place for dinner, and i suggested the 'chao chu' (fry & cook) at RH Plaza, Old Siang Siang. Went there quite a few times wid frens b4, and it the price of the food was very reasonably priced. Didn't want to make a hole out of mum & sis's pockets, so i really juz wanted sth cheap for dinner as well as a get together wid my family. Actually eating out hadn't been a common practice in my family since young, and only lately when there are lesser family members at home, it'd been easier to find a suitable time for everyone to gather together and to eat outside. =)
Dinner was great, very reasonably priced and wid very satisfactory portion. We had 5 persons at the dinner table, and though we ordered meal portion for 4 persons, it was still quite a lot.
KC is back in Kuching tonite.... and we had all made plans of meeting up cum to celebrate my bday. Piang keep on saying tat she'll buy the 'mickey heads' (sounded like mice heads), and we went to the Taiwan Fried Chicken shop at Green Road for supper. Hee... they bought all the tartlets for me.. which are all so cute, and they sang me bday songs. Had a fun time hanging out wid the normal gang. Mek, nb, piang & KC... thanks for all ur effort, and HUGS... luv u all so much!
I got quite a few 'sms'es from those far from kuching, but still carry me in their hearts. Thanks for remembering & for minding to call. HUGZ.... it really made me feel special, and luv. Thanks emmy for ur wishes. Ur sms owest haf tat kind of 'magic' over my spirit!!!
19th Oct, Thurs ~ BIRTHDAY MORN!!! Woke up smelling some really nice aroma from the kitchen... wat can tat be??? Went downstairs to check it out, and found mum purposely cooking Foochow Mee Sua wid Red Wine for me! She even made hard-boiled eggs for me. Wah... i'm really happy! Thanks so much dearest mummy! Mum said she cooked the mee sua & eggs for breakfast, because i wont be having dinner at home tonite. Mummy is the best! =))
She reminded me to better not 'snail' tis morn, n to get dressed up earlier so i can enjoy my mee sua slowly. Haha.... i did! I rushed to take my bath, dressed up and am ready at 7.20am. I din know i can be tat fast if i really wanted to! Hehe...
Then at work, i received yunnyi's call. I was wondering in bed last nite why hadn't the gals called me. They owest do when it's my bday, and wid them having the heart to call me all the way from peninsular, it really mean a lot. Chatted quite a while on the fon wid yunnyi, and she said hiewming said she'll call me last nite to wish me happy birthday if she had managed to stay awake til midnite. Then tat mean hiewming had fallen asleep... haha... n i asked yi, how about urself le? u oso din call me at midnite, n she replied she too had fallen asleep. haha...
u know wat, i think all of us are getting a bit old liao lo... i don mean age. It's like we intend to get tired so easily, then be forgetful. szehau was even funnier, he was de first to greet me happy bday on 18th... n i replied saying thanks but my bday is on 19th. Wahahaha... n he said he tot tat nite was 19th. Cant blame him, he was on mc but still remember my bday is nearing... hee...
n i went out to pick up sth juz now, sth real sweet & thanks so much for ur effort. Though the journey is far, it hadn't felt tat far knowing ur intention. Thanks... HUGZ...
19th Oct, 1230pm - 2nd part of the day to be continued later...
Birthday Celebration Part 2
19th Oct, Thurs ~ Somewhere around 1645, i got a big surprise. Sylvia called me to go downstairs to pick up sth. What can tat be??? So i went downstairs n found out tat someone had sent me a big bouquet of red roses! Hee... so paisei but feeling very happy too.
I never had ppl sending me flowers to my office before and, it was kind of embarassing. I remembered some of the gals in the office did received bouquets of flowers on Valentine's day b4... n it had made me wonder how would the feeling of receiving flowers in office be like? It was sweet, and when i carried my bouquet of flowers upstairs, everyone was commenting wat a nice bouquet it was. =) It was really beautiful, but i did feel tat it must cost a lot as well. I wondered too who can the sender be... but definately, of cuz, the person tat came across my mind was Siewhung. Haha... only he would do such a thing for me. He had juz reached Kuching around 1500pm, and had told me tat he'll be bringing me out for dinner at 7pm tonite.
He brought me to Carvery tonite. He had wanted to bring me there a few times oledi to try out the buffet. I had never tried the buffet at Carvery, and Siewhung had told me before tat it was nice when he went there wid his colleagues last time, and after tat he owest say he'll bring me there to try it's buffet, but for a few times tat we had went there, Carvery was owest close. Tonite, everything was beautiful. The environment at Carvery was fine, and it's food was superb. All the steaks & chops were heavenly. I love the salads as well. Perhaps i had too much meat lately, and i seems to be craving for salads n fresh veges, and the choices at the salad bar kind of satisfied my cravings for veges.
When we sat at our table, i find tat Siewhung was moving uncomfortably. I asked if he'd like to keep his wallet n handphone in my handbag, because i think wid all those bulky things in his pockets, he was unable to sit comfortably. He said it was okie so we enjoyed our dinner. Then halfway thru our dinner, he grabbed 3 small boxes out from his pockets, and place them on the table in front of me, and ask me to pick one. Hee.... there were 2 small black box and a bigger baby blue colour box. No wonder it was so hard for him to sit properly.
I picked the middle box, and opened it up. It was a pair of diamond earrings... studs actually. I asked him if i can see wat's in the other 2 boxes as well, so he told me that they were all for me. In the other black box was a platinum chain with an extremely elegant longular-shaped pendant. The last blue box contained a bracelet... he said the lady from 'Lazo' gave him the bracelet for free when he purchased the necklace & earrings, and told him tat beads is in trend now. I took a closer look at the bracelet n found out tat the beads were of uneven sizes and shapes. I told him tat these r real pearls. He said it was Japanese pearls to be more precise. They were beautiful... and very sweet. He helped me to wear the chain around my neck, as i wasn't wearing any necklace tat nite. I had tot of putting on my other platinum necklace, but i changed my mind. =)
See lee 'sms'ed me somewhere during my dinner time, and Seng & Chaiyaw & Hiewming called. The last call was from hiewming, and i had known it was her even before i look at my fon. I knew she'd call, and i kind of sensed tat it was her. haha...
We drove around town, and sightseeing... seems like it had been quite long not touring around town wid siewhung. We used to do tat almost everynite last time, cox it was the only possible thing to do after he is done wid his job. We stopped by to buy some langsat, then stopped by at mek's house. After tat, we went straight home as it was oledi 2300pm and i hadn't cut my cake yet.
Siewhung bought me a blueberry cheese cake from Southern. Blueberry cheese is my favourite cake, but Southern's cake seems to be getting worse. There were actually more cream than cake. My youngest sis & mum & siewhung sang me bday song, and i cut the cake. Then we enjoyed our cakes. I was very, very full then so i juz took a small slice. After tat, we cleaned up and siewhung & i had a long talk tat nite. Hadn't really know how things were going on for him now. He also bought me a new Akemi pillow. It's very hard for me to find a right pillow, because i couldn't sleep wid pillow tat's too high. If the pillow is too high for me, i rather sleep without pillow. The other time i tried the goosefeather pillow at his hotel, and it was really so comfy tat i had such a nice sleep. So he promised to buy me a goosefeather pillow. The one he bought for me was a goosefeather pillow, with ginkgo leaves for therapeutic purpose, as i always have migraine & headaches. But when siewhung took out the pillow, he found out tat the pillow is juz ordinary goosefeather pillow and he was very angry. haha.... he carried the pillow all the way from KK to Kuching, and found out tat he had paid for a wrong pillow... but i told him tat it was alright. The goosefeather pillow was still comfy all the same... so although the price differ quite a lot, i understand his effort.
We looked thru a lot of our old photos, back in our schooldays. It was funny to see how much things had changed and also the ppl around us had changed. I knew the most funny part was when siewhung commented about peishan... saying "huh?? so tis is how peishan looks like previously? so different!!!" I was laughing so loud though it was past midnite then. if peishan read this, she'll put her favourite 'angry-faced' icon here.
I had a wonderful birthday. Feel as if a lot of magic had gone from our relationship due to a lot of factors. But tonite, everything had seemed to be back to how it had once been like for us... bringing back sweet memories. I know how much he is wiling to do for me, and i felt contented n oso feeling sorry at the same time, for all tat i had deprived him of. Hopefully my birthday wish this year will be fulfilled! Last year's bday wish hadn't came true... maybe i was asking for sth hard to be accomplished, but tis year, i hadn't been greedy n i juz made a simple wish. =) Hopefully it will be fulfilled this year!
Well, though my birthday is today, I'd oledi been celebrating it for the past 2 days. Feel very grateful and really thanks to all my frens around me who luv me so much, as well as those frens who are faraway who tot of me. I really feel special, getting so much attention from everyone. Even when i went to bed last nite, past midnite, i was beaming to myself on my bed. Hee.... so silly!
Birthday Celebration Part 1
17th Oct, Tues ~ As usual i went for my dancing class at PowerMoves tonite. Wah... it was extremely tired, since i think we had been lagging behind, and not really put tat much effort in dancing lately. But tonite was different... everyone was so serious, and the class seems to be packed & lively since we haf 2 newcomers to join us tonite. Though i was really tired, I was glad tat i really exercised cox seldom sweat lately. renhao mentioned tat chikeng is really a good dance choreographer, cox she really pinpoint all the mistakes tat we made, and intend to 'catch' either our extra or lack of movements. Yes, I really admit tat she's good. After class, we had a little bday celebration... my bday celebration, to be more precise... hee.... and they sang me the bday songsssss, i cut the cake & we enjoyed our yummy cheese cake!
I think it shud be New York cheese cake... thank you dearest AH MA for ur effort and oso to all my dearest frens from PowerMoves, and thank you Ah Hian for ur bday wish tat sez "kuai gao zhang da"... haha... if really still can grow, well... i can grow a little taller lo, but i don wan to "zhang da" anymore lo.... i'm oledi very big-sized liao wor... heee... still "zhang da" somemore will be 'giant' lo among u guys!!!
18th Oct, Wed ~ Tonite mum & sis to bring me out for dinner. They wanna treat me for my bday. Actually they wanted to bring me out on 19th nite, but i told them i wont be free. So we all agreed on 18th nite. They asked me to pick a place for dinner, and i suggested the 'chao chu' (fry & cook) at RH Plaza, Old Siang Siang. Went there quite a few times wid frens b4, and it the price of the food was very reasonably priced. Didn't want to make a hole out of mum & sis's pockets, so i really juz wanted sth cheap for dinner as well as a get together wid my family. Actually eating out hadn't been a common practice in my family since young, and only lately when there are lesser family members at home, it'd been easier to find a suitable time for everyone to gather together and to eat outside. =)
Dinner was great, very reasonably priced and wid very satisfactory portion. We had 5 persons at the dinner table, and though we ordered meal portion for 4 persons, it was still quite a lot.
KC is back in Kuching tonite.... and we had all made plans of meeting up cum to celebrate my bday. Piang keep on saying tat she'll buy the 'mickey heads' (sounded like mice heads), and we went to the Taiwan Fried Chicken shop at Green Road for supper. Hee... they bought all the tartlets for me.. which are all so cute, and they sang me bday songs. Had a fun time hanging out wid the normal gang. Mek, nb, piang & KC... thanks for all ur effort, and HUGS... luv u all so much!
I got quite a few 'sms'es from those far from kuching, but still carry me in their hearts. Thanks for remembering & for minding to call. HUGZ.... it really made me feel special, and luv. Thanks emmy for ur wishes. Ur sms owest haf tat kind of 'magic' over my spirit!!!
19th Oct, Thurs ~ BIRTHDAY MORN!!! Woke up smelling some really nice aroma from the kitchen... wat can tat be??? Went downstairs to check it out, and found mum purposely cooking Foochow Mee Sua wid Red Wine for me! She even made hard-boiled eggs for me. Wah... i'm really happy! Thanks so much dearest mummy! Mum said she cooked the mee sua & eggs for breakfast, because i wont be having dinner at home tonite. Mummy is the best! =))
She reminded me to better not 'snail' tis morn, n to get dressed up earlier so i can enjoy my mee sua slowly. Haha.... i did! I rushed to take my bath, dressed up and am ready at 7.20am. I din know i can be tat fast if i really wanted to! Hehe...
Then at work, i received yunnyi's call. I was wondering in bed last nite why hadn't the gals called me. They owest do when it's my bday, and wid them having the heart to call me all the way from peninsular, it really mean a lot. Chatted quite a while on the fon wid yunnyi, and she said hiewming said she'll call me last nite to wish me happy birthday if she had managed to stay awake til midnite. Then tat mean hiewming had fallen asleep... haha... n i asked yi, how about urself le? u oso din call me at midnite, n she replied she too had fallen asleep. haha...
u know wat, i think all of us are getting a bit old liao lo... i don mean age. It's like we intend to get tired so easily, then be forgetful. szehau was even funnier, he was de first to greet me happy bday on 18th... n i replied saying thanks but my bday is on 19th. Wahahaha... n he said he tot tat nite was 19th. Cant blame him, he was on mc but still remember my bday is nearing... hee...
n i went out to pick up sth juz now, sth real sweet & thanks so much for ur effort. Though the journey is far, it hadn't felt tat far knowing ur intention. Thanks... HUGZ...
19th Oct, 1230pm - 2nd part of the day to be continued later...
Birthday Celebration Part 2
19th Oct, Thurs ~ Somewhere around 1645, i got a big surprise. Sylvia called me to go downstairs to pick up sth. What can tat be??? So i went downstairs n found out tat someone had sent me a big bouquet of red roses! Hee... so paisei but feeling very happy too.
I never had ppl sending me flowers to my office before and, it was kind of embarassing. I remembered some of the gals in the office did received bouquets of flowers on Valentine's day b4... n it had made me wonder how would the feeling of receiving flowers in office be like? It was sweet, and when i carried my bouquet of flowers upstairs, everyone was commenting wat a nice bouquet it was. =) It was really beautiful, but i did feel tat it must cost a lot as well. I wondered too who can the sender be... but definately, of cuz, the person tat came across my mind was Siewhung. Haha... only he would do such a thing for me. He had juz reached Kuching around 1500pm, and had told me tat he'll be bringing me out for dinner at 7pm tonite.He brought me to Carvery tonite. He had wanted to bring me there a few times oledi to try out the buffet. I had never tried the buffet at Carvery, and Siewhung had told me before tat it was nice when he went there wid his colleagues last time, and after tat he owest say he'll bring me there to try it's buffet, but for a few times tat we had went there, Carvery was owest close. Tonite, everything was beautiful. The environment at Carvery was fine, and it's food was superb. All the steaks & chops were heavenly. I love the salads as well. Perhaps i had too much meat lately, and i seems to be craving for salads n fresh veges, and the choices at the salad bar kind of satisfied my cravings for veges.
When we sat at our table, i find tat Siewhung was moving uncomfortably. I asked if he'd like to keep his wallet n handphone in my handbag, because i think wid all those bulky things in his pockets, he was unable to sit comfortably. He said it was okie so we enjoyed our dinner. Then halfway thru our dinner, he grabbed 3 small boxes out from his pockets, and place them on the table in front of me, and ask me to pick one. Hee.... there were 2 small black box and a bigger baby blue colour box. No wonder it was so hard for him to sit properly.
I picked the middle box, and opened it up. It was a pair of diamond earrings... studs actually. I asked him if i can see wat's in the other 2 boxes as well, so he told me that they were all for me. In the other black box was a platinum chain with an extremely elegant longular-shaped pendant. The last blue box contained a bracelet... he said the lady from 'Lazo' gave him the bracelet for free when he purchased the necklace & earrings, and told him tat beads is in trend now. I took a closer look at the bracelet n found out tat the beads were of uneven sizes and shapes. I told him tat these r real pearls. He said it was Japanese pearls to be more precise. They were beautiful... and very sweet. He helped me to wear the chain around my neck, as i wasn't wearing any necklace tat nite. I had tot of putting on my other platinum necklace, but i changed my mind. =)See lee 'sms'ed me somewhere during my dinner time, and Seng & Chaiyaw & Hiewming called. The last call was from hiewming, and i had known it was her even before i look at my fon. I knew she'd call, and i kind of sensed tat it was her. haha...
We drove around town, and sightseeing... seems like it had been quite long not touring around town wid siewhung. We used to do tat almost everynite last time, cox it was the only possible thing to do after he is done wid his job. We stopped by to buy some langsat, then stopped by at mek's house. After tat, we went straight home as it was oledi 2300pm and i hadn't cut my cake yet.
Siewhung bought me a blueberry cheese cake from Southern. Blueberry cheese is my favourite cake, but Southern's cake seems to be getting worse. There were actually more cream than cake. My youngest sis & mum & siewhung sang me bday song, and i cut the cake. Then we enjoyed our cakes. I was very, very full then so i juz took a small slice. After tat, we cleaned up and siewhung & i had a long talk tat nite. Hadn't really know how things were going on for him now. He also bought me a new Akemi pillow. It's very hard for me to find a right pillow, because i couldn't sleep wid pillow tat's too high. If the pillow is too high for me, i rather sleep without pillow. The other time i tried the goosefeather pillow at his hotel, and it was really so comfy tat i had such a nice sleep. So he promised to buy me a goosefeather pillow. The one he bought for me was a goosefeather pillow, with ginkgo leaves for therapeutic purpose, as i always have migraine & headaches. But when siewhung took out the pillow, he found out tat the pillow is juz ordinary goosefeather pillow and he was very angry. haha.... he carried the pillow all the way from KK to Kuching, and found out tat he had paid for a wrong pillow... but i told him tat it was alright. The goosefeather pillow was still comfy all the same... so although the price differ quite a lot, i understand his effort.
We looked thru a lot of our old photos, back in our schooldays. It was funny to see how much things had changed and also the ppl around us had changed. I knew the most funny part was when siewhung commented about peishan... saying "huh?? so tis is how peishan looks like previously? so different!!!" I was laughing so loud though it was past midnite then. if peishan read this, she'll put her favourite 'angry-faced' icon here.
I had a wonderful birthday. Feel as if a lot of magic had gone from our relationship due to a lot of factors. But tonite, everything had seemed to be back to how it had once been like for us... bringing back sweet memories. I know how much he is wiling to do for me, and i felt contented n oso feeling sorry at the same time, for all tat i had deprived him of. Hopefully my birthday wish this year will be fulfilled! Last year's bday wish hadn't came true... maybe i was asking for sth hard to be accomplished, but tis year, i hadn't been greedy n i juz made a simple wish. =) Hopefully it will be fulfilled this year!
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| Memories of my b'day 2006! |
10/08/2006
burp :">
I'd juz took one&half piece of KFC Hot & Spicy Chicken. Hee... paisei.... actually i shudn't be taking heaty food anymore since i hadn't really recover yet. But i really feel like eating it, and sis oso feel so tempted when i asked her if she's thinking of KFC. so i decided to give her a treat, as well as myself. Hee...
Last Thurs was like hell for me. Haze in Kuching was pretty bad lately, and the weather really cause a lot of ppl to be sick. On Thurs nite i had to ask mum to help me 'gua-sha'... my world seems to be spinning around & around. Having to stare at the monitor at work, really makes me feel even more sick! Well, Mooncake Fest tis year is pretty ordinary... juz like another normal day, juz tat we'd more dishes to eat than usual. Seems like most kids staying indoors, avoiding de haze i guess.
Sat was my final English Advanced Presentation Class.... glad tat i'd scored pretty well for my presentation. =) Proud of myself... if andrea hadn't deducted 5 marks for not informing her beforehand about my topic, i'd haf scored 94%. I had never tot i'd do so well.... haha... for few seconds up in front of the class, i kinda lost my words!
Tis morn I had a SURPRISE! haha.... Early morn i went down to Holiday Inn to get a CD which contain my Cambodia trip's photo from yunnyi's fren, who happened to be in Kch. Then i passed the birdnest tat karhooi wanted to yi's fren, so tat ah yi can pass to karhooi later. After tat piang & me had promised mek to haf breakfast at Kenyalang. Mek said got a place in Kenyalang the kolo mee not bad... so we went to have our breakfast there. After breakfast, we went back to mek's place... then the gals handed me a gift, saying it's my bday gift. I was like "Huh... why so early????"
and mek say... because we r afraid u might wanna use it before ur bday. okie... then i was figuring out wat in the world can tat be???
When i opened my gift, i saw tat it was a photo frame... n it was designed very beautifully wid my fave 'forever-friends' bear bear pic all over, n oso the pic of our geng of frens. I was so touched. Mek is so good at doing all these stuff, nice decorated hand made stuffs, n oso surprises... then i looked carefully again, i saw tat there were money rolled neatly into tiny rolls and oso a voucher. It was a hair-do voucher, and valid only until my bday. So i was thinking maybe this is the reason why they had given me the voucher earlier, so tat i can use it while it's still valid. Then i asked them, so where is the saloon??? How come no address of the saloon???
Mek was giggling while she tell me.... did u see the voucher clearly?? If it's a real voucher, then why r we still giving u the RM280??? Hmm... actually i was thinking the voucher is real, but only a registration voucher, then u still need to pay when u go to 'tat' saloon. How funny my thinking was, but i really tot tat way. Somemore i was thinking too RM280, the exactly same price as the saloon i asked for before.... how come they can get a saloon which offers exactly the same price??? ??? ???
I admit I was real slow TODAY... n blur... n finally when i get the joke cum surprise, i really couldn't stop laughing n beaming all over. I felt so touched by their sincerity... so paisei la, they must be thinking this ah ying, as long as watever we can give her to 'beautify' herself, she'll be sure damn happy! Hahaha...
Luv u guys a lot! Thanks so much for all the effort n the sincerity. U all are the best! but honestly, i really feel paisei lo... maybe i keep on complaining about money lately, and seems like i'm initiating u all wat i wanted for bday!
But really, thanks so much.... luv u all a lot lot lot!!! MUAH MUAH MUAH.... HUGZ HUGZ HUGZZZZZZ............
Last Thurs was like hell for me. Haze in Kuching was pretty bad lately, and the weather really cause a lot of ppl to be sick. On Thurs nite i had to ask mum to help me 'gua-sha'... my world seems to be spinning around & around. Having to stare at the monitor at work, really makes me feel even more sick! Well, Mooncake Fest tis year is pretty ordinary... juz like another normal day, juz tat we'd more dishes to eat than usual. Seems like most kids staying indoors, avoiding de haze i guess.
Sat was my final English Advanced Presentation Class.... glad tat i'd scored pretty well for my presentation. =) Proud of myself... if andrea hadn't deducted 5 marks for not informing her beforehand about my topic, i'd haf scored 94%. I had never tot i'd do so well.... haha... for few seconds up in front of the class, i kinda lost my words!
Tis morn I had a SURPRISE! haha.... Early morn i went down to Holiday Inn to get a CD which contain my Cambodia trip's photo from yunnyi's fren, who happened to be in Kch. Then i passed the birdnest tat karhooi wanted to yi's fren, so tat ah yi can pass to karhooi later. After tat piang & me had promised mek to haf breakfast at Kenyalang. Mek said got a place in Kenyalang the kolo mee not bad... so we went to have our breakfast there. After breakfast, we went back to mek's place... then the gals handed me a gift, saying it's my bday gift. I was like "Huh... why so early????"
and mek say... because we r afraid u might wanna use it before ur bday. okie... then i was figuring out wat in the world can tat be???
When i opened my gift, i saw tat it was a photo frame... n it was designed very beautifully wid my fave 'forever-friends' bear bear pic all over, n oso the pic of our geng of frens. I was so touched. Mek is so good at doing all these stuff, nice decorated hand made stuffs, n oso surprises... then i looked carefully again, i saw tat there were money rolled neatly into tiny rolls and oso a voucher. It was a hair-do voucher, and valid only until my bday. So i was thinking maybe this is the reason why they had given me the voucher earlier, so tat i can use it while it's still valid. Then i asked them, so where is the saloon??? How come no address of the saloon???
Mek was giggling while she tell me.... did u see the voucher clearly?? If it's a real voucher, then why r we still giving u the RM280??? Hmm... actually i was thinking the voucher is real, but only a registration voucher, then u still need to pay when u go to 'tat' saloon. How funny my thinking was, but i really tot tat way. Somemore i was thinking too RM280, the exactly same price as the saloon i asked for before.... how come they can get a saloon which offers exactly the same price??? ??? ???
I admit I was real slow TODAY... n blur... n finally when i get the joke cum surprise, i really couldn't stop laughing n beaming all over. I felt so touched by their sincerity... so paisei la, they must be thinking this ah ying, as long as watever we can give her to 'beautify' herself, she'll be sure damn happy! Hahaha...
Luv u guys a lot! Thanks so much for all the effort n the sincerity. U all are the best! but honestly, i really feel paisei lo... maybe i keep on complaining about money lately, and seems like i'm initiating u all wat i wanted for bday!
But really, thanks so much.... luv u all a lot lot lot!!! MUAH MUAH MUAH.... HUGZ HUGZ HUGZZZZZZ............
9/26/2006
wat IS tis??
Hey folks!
I got an interesting pic here, and i wanna share wid u all!
Now, what in the world is this??? At the first sight of it, it seems like some sort of a filter from a car, or a car's dirty old parts! But... no.... it's the carbon filter from my house's Amway Water Treatment System and it is shockingly, disgustingly dirty! Can you imagine how dirty our drinking water is? I shud haf taken a pic of the new, clean filter so tat we can make a comparison but too bad, i forgot to. Perhaps the sight of this used filter shocked me... and it really terrifies me. Well, water is supposed to be one of the most important thing for our body, but imagine drinking water as dirty as this! Yucks!
Lately, I'd been slacking behind a lot. The other day i tried to 'on' my Palm PDA, which i hadn't done for quite a number of weeks, and found tat it's battery was flat. So i charged it and finally i can turn it on, but all my data inside my Palm is lost! I rem ppl telling me tat if u didn't use ur handheld for quite sometime, it'll automatically be resetted and all ur info gone! Sigh.... wat had i done???
Then yesterday morn, i finally had the initiative to listen to the songs in my iPod Shuffle, and again amazingly, all my previous stored songs were gone! Kind of rotten luck for me, but again i think perhaps de files inside had been corrupted for quite some time, and i hadn't checked it out for so long. Wat is happening to me??? Even when i wanna synchronize my PDA wid this office PC, i'd fail to do so. I think the settings had gone cuckoo... somemore my combo drive [CD Reader & Burner only, no DVD burner... how sad =( ] at home was spoilt. So i couldn't install de Palm Desktop (for Palm handheld) & iTunes (for iPod shuffle) to my pc back at home, and i only got this office pc here to do everything, but i'm kind of packed with works now... so where got time to re-organise everything???
Sigh... rotten, rotten luck! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..............
I got an interesting pic here, and i wanna share wid u all!
Now, what in the world is this??? At the first sight of it, it seems like some sort of a filter from a car, or a car's dirty old parts! But... no.... it's the carbon filter from my house's Amway Water Treatment System and it is shockingly, disgustingly dirty! Can you imagine how dirty our drinking water is? I shud haf taken a pic of the new, clean filter so tat we can make a comparison but too bad, i forgot to. Perhaps the sight of this used filter shocked me... and it really terrifies me. Well, water is supposed to be one of the most important thing for our body, but imagine drinking water as dirty as this! Yucks!
Lately, I'd been slacking behind a lot. The other day i tried to 'on' my Palm PDA, which i hadn't done for quite a number of weeks, and found tat it's battery was flat. So i charged it and finally i can turn it on, but all my data inside my Palm is lost! I rem ppl telling me tat if u didn't use ur handheld for quite sometime, it'll automatically be resetted and all ur info gone! Sigh.... wat had i done???
Then yesterday morn, i finally had the initiative to listen to the songs in my iPod Shuffle, and again amazingly, all my previous stored songs were gone! Kind of rotten luck for me, but again i think perhaps de files inside had been corrupted for quite some time, and i hadn't checked it out for so long. Wat is happening to me??? Even when i wanna synchronize my PDA wid this office PC, i'd fail to do so. I think the settings had gone cuckoo... somemore my combo drive [CD Reader & Burner only, no DVD burner... how sad =( ] at home was spoilt. So i couldn't install de Palm Desktop (for Palm handheld) & iTunes (for iPod shuffle) to my pc back at home, and i only got this office pc here to do everything, but i'm kind of packed with works now... so where got time to re-organise everything???
Sigh... rotten, rotten luck! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..............
9/23/2006
=(
Today sucks!
Arghhh... so pissed off! Well, the day started not so fine. I knew i had to send the car over to get the air-cond fix today, n i m wondering how much i will need to spend on fixing it. Woke up quite early, and feel really tired. Sigh... needed RM450 to get the air-cond fix. My heart cried out... cried out in pain. *sob* *sob* so much i need to spend on it, although mum offered to sponsor 50%, i still feel it's very expensive.
Then i went to the Advanced Presentation English class at 1030am. Listening to andrea speaks always delights me. I love to listen to her speak english in such a fluent way. She's a New Zealander and today she taught us grammar. I admit my grammar sucks... and i'd forgotten a lot about grammar once i left secondary school. However, i kind of felt pissed off when i had to do the presentation AGAIN today. We were divided into groups, and somehow i was in the same previous group. Last week, i'd taken the initiative to present when i saw that no one had wanted to make the move. I was hoping after my turn, it'd be someoneelse today but again... no one wanted to do it. And i had to present again. I really feel very unsatisfied, i really, really do!
Stayed at home whole afternoon and read Sidney Sheldon - Windmills of the God or sth like tat, but i haven't finish the book yet. Then i fell asleep til almost 1800. When i woke up, mum told me that the car's lubricating oil almost finish. I MUST refill it today la.. if not mum say the whole engine will get spoilt. Actually i really haf no idea tat u need to refill the lubricating oil. so stupid of me rite... but to me, it's money again. Sigh! Somemore this afternoon received my credit card bill for this month, and i need to pay a lot cox i helped my bro & sis to buy their air tickets last month. Well, i can only ask the money from my sis when she's back in Nov. Looks like this month is going to be even worse for me. As for my bro's, i can deduct it from the sum i gave to mum monthly.
I'd wanted to put aside some money for myself and to get something for myself next month. It's my birthday month next month, and there are some things i really wanted to do for myself. I feel like straightening my hair so much... which costs RM280, and i'd told piang tat day tat i'll try my best to do it before bday. But seems like i'd have to cancel my plan. I need to use tat money to help to pay for sis's airticket first. =(
Piang called to ask me out for dinner tonite. I was napping tat time, and i turned her down. In my mind, it's going to be spending money again, and i rather eat at home. But i'm so bored at home now.... sigh.... met seelee & hiewming on msn. Hiewming said they went to karaoke tis afternoon, together wid yunnyi, then dine at Seksyen17, and will go to watch midnite show 'The Banquet' later. How i envy them.... i'm so damn bored here and i wanted very much to join the gals, but they are so far away. I miss them a lot too, n part of me wish i'm over there working in KL now.... wuwuwuwuwuuuuuuuuuu.............
Seelee juz told me tat her housemate went for LASIK. It costs her RM6k... tat's a lot. That means i will haf to save even more if i really wanna do LASIK. Each and every dream of mine seems to be so far, far away.....
Arghhh... so pissed off! Well, the day started not so fine. I knew i had to send the car over to get the air-cond fix today, n i m wondering how much i will need to spend on fixing it. Woke up quite early, and feel really tired. Sigh... needed RM450 to get the air-cond fix. My heart cried out... cried out in pain. *sob* *sob* so much i need to spend on it, although mum offered to sponsor 50%, i still feel it's very expensive.
Then i went to the Advanced Presentation English class at 1030am. Listening to andrea speaks always delights me. I love to listen to her speak english in such a fluent way. She's a New Zealander and today she taught us grammar. I admit my grammar sucks... and i'd forgotten a lot about grammar once i left secondary school. However, i kind of felt pissed off when i had to do the presentation AGAIN today. We were divided into groups, and somehow i was in the same previous group. Last week, i'd taken the initiative to present when i saw that no one had wanted to make the move. I was hoping after my turn, it'd be someoneelse today but again... no one wanted to do it. And i had to present again. I really feel very unsatisfied, i really, really do!
Stayed at home whole afternoon and read Sidney Sheldon - Windmills of the God or sth like tat, but i haven't finish the book yet. Then i fell asleep til almost 1800. When i woke up, mum told me that the car's lubricating oil almost finish. I MUST refill it today la.. if not mum say the whole engine will get spoilt. Actually i really haf no idea tat u need to refill the lubricating oil. so stupid of me rite... but to me, it's money again. Sigh! Somemore this afternoon received my credit card bill for this month, and i need to pay a lot cox i helped my bro & sis to buy their air tickets last month. Well, i can only ask the money from my sis when she's back in Nov. Looks like this month is going to be even worse for me. As for my bro's, i can deduct it from the sum i gave to mum monthly.
I'd wanted to put aside some money for myself and to get something for myself next month. It's my birthday month next month, and there are some things i really wanted to do for myself. I feel like straightening my hair so much... which costs RM280, and i'd told piang tat day tat i'll try my best to do it before bday. But seems like i'd have to cancel my plan. I need to use tat money to help to pay for sis's airticket first. =(
Piang called to ask me out for dinner tonite. I was napping tat time, and i turned her down. In my mind, it's going to be spending money again, and i rather eat at home. But i'm so bored at home now.... sigh.... met seelee & hiewming on msn. Hiewming said they went to karaoke tis afternoon, together wid yunnyi, then dine at Seksyen17, and will go to watch midnite show 'The Banquet' later. How i envy them.... i'm so damn bored here and i wanted very much to join the gals, but they are so far away. I miss them a lot too, n part of me wish i'm over there working in KL now.... wuwuwuwuwuuuuuuuuuu.............
Seelee juz told me tat her housemate went for LASIK. It costs her RM6k... tat's a lot. That means i will haf to save even more if i really wanna do LASIK. Each and every dream of mine seems to be so far, far away.....
9/22/2006
$$ M-O-N-E-Y $$
Sigh!
How come everything need to be so expensive? Jess juz came to office juz now, cox she's on half day leave today. Now I'd juz received their invitation card. Yes, i am very happy for them. Their wedding photos are so nice, and their invitation card is nice too... and most important of all, they both are very happy!
When i asked how much did her wedding album costs, it almost reach RM5k. I nearly fainted.... it is so expensive. Well, Jacky Studio is so well known of its quality photo, as well as the photographer's 'temper'. People say that wedding is one of the happiest event that can happen in one's life. But all this costly arrangements juz in order to get married, can as well pull one's mood down.
Everyone around started discussing how good the photos are, how much they had spent to get all this done, why Jess had informed us so late, and how some ppl feel negative about her being secretive concerning her wedding.. and in the end, when am i getting married. I got a warning from my colleagues though, never to hide any wedding arrangements like what Jess did.
Well, actually i kind of know she is getting married this year, but it's just tat i hadn't tot it'd be so near! That day when i kind of tricked her into telling me if she's getting married this year (being the usual 'monkey-minded' me...), I felt a mixture of feeling deep inside.
As a fren of cuz i'm very happy for her & Jong, but in the end it made me think of myself. At time, i feel tat i'm aging & i shud get married soon. Sylvia told me juz now tat for my case it's like 'she heard footsteps walking down the stairs, but the person never came down'! Hard to interpret eh.... why, yes, i'm the unusual one.... i do feel tat i hadn't much time left, but it's the feeling of whether i really feel like tying the knot tat matters.
I do dream of a perfect wedding, and of cuz tat does not exclude all the stuffs tat u'll need to haf like wedding photos, dinner, honeymoon.... the list goes on, and at the end of the day, it juz total up to one thing... MONEY!
How nice if one can be happy and contented without having to worry ever about money. It seems to be hard for everyone to be threading on such a path these days. Sigh!
How come everything need to be so expensive? Jess juz came to office juz now, cox she's on half day leave today. Now I'd juz received their invitation card. Yes, i am very happy for them. Their wedding photos are so nice, and their invitation card is nice too... and most important of all, they both are very happy!
When i asked how much did her wedding album costs, it almost reach RM5k. I nearly fainted.... it is so expensive. Well, Jacky Studio is so well known of its quality photo, as well as the photographer's 'temper'. People say that wedding is one of the happiest event that can happen in one's life. But all this costly arrangements juz in order to get married, can as well pull one's mood down.
Everyone around started discussing how good the photos are, how much they had spent to get all this done, why Jess had informed us so late, and how some ppl feel negative about her being secretive concerning her wedding.. and in the end, when am i getting married. I got a warning from my colleagues though, never to hide any wedding arrangements like what Jess did.
Well, actually i kind of know she is getting married this year, but it's just tat i hadn't tot it'd be so near! That day when i kind of tricked her into telling me if she's getting married this year (being the usual 'monkey-minded' me...), I felt a mixture of feeling deep inside.
As a fren of cuz i'm very happy for her & Jong, but in the end it made me think of myself. At time, i feel tat i'm aging & i shud get married soon. Sylvia told me juz now tat for my case it's like 'she heard footsteps walking down the stairs, but the person never came down'! Hard to interpret eh.... why, yes, i'm the unusual one.... i do feel tat i hadn't much time left, but it's the feeling of whether i really feel like tying the knot tat matters.
I do dream of a perfect wedding, and of cuz tat does not exclude all the stuffs tat u'll need to haf like wedding photos, dinner, honeymoon.... the list goes on, and at the end of the day, it juz total up to one thing... MONEY!
How nice if one can be happy and contented without having to worry ever about money. It seems to be hard for everyone to be threading on such a path these days. Sigh!
9/05/2006
pig-ing out!
Over the weekend, we had been pigging out. Once Dr. KC Lee is back in town, we always get to eat non-stop. I was amazed too at the state we pigged out.... we had a lot of food, and a lot of different food. Practically, it was only food, food, and more food if you have KC around.
Sat morn we went out for breakfast at 7th mile. KC came pick me, Piang and Yiengyin wid his mum's new Myvi. Off we went to 7th mile, and i finally got to drink the 'teh C peng' Special which i missed so much. I ordered pan mee, and the rest had 'chao chai beehoon'. After tat, i went to attend my Advanced Presentation Skill class, and the class ended at 1330. Was so damn sleepy....
Promised Piang & KC to go shopping wid them tat afternoon. So we went to town and the 2 of them accompanied me for my lunch at KFC. Well, though it was oledi 1500, but it was still considered lunch for me cox i haven't eaten anything since breakfast. After KFC, we went around shopping and tat hiaw hiaw piang bought a new pair of heels. At around 1730, we went to Kenyalang n had ice cream. Actually we wanted to hunt for durians, and ended up sitting outside the shop selling Frosty Boy icecream. So i called mek and asked her where can we buy durians in Kenyalang since our dearest doc was craving for durians for so so so long! Mek mek said she can ask her dad to help us to buy, so we juz need to go to her house later tat nite to haf durians feast. Wow! mek mek... "ni shi zhui hao de, ni zhi dao ma". KC asked us to accompany him out for dinner tat nite, so we choose to dine at one of the stall at RH Plaza Siang Siang where we can order dishes. Tat nite we had peishan, tnb, aiwei, KC and me. Food we ordered -> butter squid, clams, steamed 'tapah' fish, sea cucumber soup, midin wid red wine, & BBQ chicken wings. After our dinner, off we went to mek's house to enjoy our durians. Her dad is really an expert in picking durians... the durians tasted so nice. I wonder too if it was because we had so many ppl around to fight for the durians. Hee... but poor mek was sick, so practically only some of us, few of the piggies, were feasting on the durians. I was so so so full tat nite.... i tot i could haf exploded!
(S***! -17/09/06- it's practically one week after i wrote the 1st part of this blog. Stupid streamyx connection n i couldn't had continued wid tis after the connection had gone back to normal! Juz hope i still rem the pigging out session wid KC!)
On Sun, i only went out wid KC after dinner tat nite as his mum cooked his dinner at home. Well, we tot of going pubbing, but wid piang n peishan along... hmm... seems like there need to be sort of change of plans! Those 2 r angels lo.... so cannot bring them to devil's nest! So we went to Parkson n help KC pick a shirt. Tis guy having the privilege to shop in Spore but still ended up shopping in Parkson Kch, he really does not fit living in Spore!
After tat we went for supper at Jln Song Peach Gdn. I accompanied KC to drink Heineken lo, since we cant get hold of any hard liquor which would had been his 1st choice. We ordered rojak, 'BBQ sotong wid sambal' & satay. Beer tat nite was great for me. I'd an enjoyable time drinking wid him, tho i wish shan & piang would've join in too.
On Mon noon, KC came to pick me out for lunch. We went to look for piang & went for Bak Kut Teh at 'Grandma's Place'. Wow... after the bak kut teh, i kind of felt sick. Too much heaty food wid KC & i think my body was starting to get sick. It rained really heavily tat afternoon. Tat nite we planned to go eat crabs wid KC. He was craving for crabs... n we MUST teman him to eat. If not, later he go back to Spore, but still think of crabs n cannot concentrate on his exam. So i called Hai Pa Wang tat afternoon n told them to reserve 2kg crabs for me. No matter wat, 'wind or rain', me MUST HAVE CRABS tat nite. Tat nite we ordered baked crabs, fried crabs wid eggs, drunken prawns, 'ma li chai', black pepper ostrich & salted vege wid taufu soup. I couldn't eat tat much tat nite. My throat was starting to get uncomfortable. Mek was sick too. Then if only depend on pei shan & piang to eat, i think the food was way too much for them n KC's aim was to go for the crabs, hmm.... but i guessed KC enjoyed the baked crabs a lot. After tat we went to Room 205 for a drink. Well, we were really very full but that's how pigs are lo... they never stop eating or drinking. We had Ice Blended Chocolate, Choc Milkshake, Mango Smoothies & hot Hazelnut Latte. Sigh.... wid KC back in town, no diet plan will work out for me.
Let me share the photos of the crabs here!
Sat morn we went out for breakfast at 7th mile. KC came pick me, Piang and Yiengyin wid his mum's new Myvi. Off we went to 7th mile, and i finally got to drink the 'teh C peng' Special which i missed so much. I ordered pan mee, and the rest had 'chao chai beehoon'. After tat, i went to attend my Advanced Presentation Skill class, and the class ended at 1330. Was so damn sleepy....
Promised Piang & KC to go shopping wid them tat afternoon. So we went to town and the 2 of them accompanied me for my lunch at KFC. Well, though it was oledi 1500, but it was still considered lunch for me cox i haven't eaten anything since breakfast. After KFC, we went around shopping and tat hiaw hiaw piang bought a new pair of heels. At around 1730, we went to Kenyalang n had ice cream. Actually we wanted to hunt for durians, and ended up sitting outside the shop selling Frosty Boy icecream. So i called mek and asked her where can we buy durians in Kenyalang since our dearest doc was craving for durians for so so so long! Mek mek said she can ask her dad to help us to buy, so we juz need to go to her house later tat nite to haf durians feast. Wow! mek mek... "ni shi zhui hao de, ni zhi dao ma". KC asked us to accompany him out for dinner tat nite, so we choose to dine at one of the stall at RH Plaza Siang Siang where we can order dishes. Tat nite we had peishan, tnb, aiwei, KC and me. Food we ordered -> butter squid, clams, steamed 'tapah' fish, sea cucumber soup, midin wid red wine, & BBQ chicken wings. After our dinner, off we went to mek's house to enjoy our durians. Her dad is really an expert in picking durians... the durians tasted so nice. I wonder too if it was because we had so many ppl around to fight for the durians. Hee... but poor mek was sick, so practically only some of us, few of the piggies, were feasting on the durians. I was so so so full tat nite.... i tot i could haf exploded!
(S***! -17/09/06- it's practically one week after i wrote the 1st part of this blog. Stupid streamyx connection n i couldn't had continued wid tis after the connection had gone back to normal! Juz hope i still rem the pigging out session wid KC!)
On Sun, i only went out wid KC after dinner tat nite as his mum cooked his dinner at home. Well, we tot of going pubbing, but wid piang n peishan along... hmm... seems like there need to be sort of change of plans! Those 2 r angels lo.... so cannot bring them to devil's nest! So we went to Parkson n help KC pick a shirt. Tis guy having the privilege to shop in Spore but still ended up shopping in Parkson Kch, he really does not fit living in Spore!
After tat we went for supper at Jln Song Peach Gdn. I accompanied KC to drink Heineken lo, since we cant get hold of any hard liquor which would had been his 1st choice. We ordered rojak, 'BBQ sotong wid sambal' & satay. Beer tat nite was great for me. I'd an enjoyable time drinking wid him, tho i wish shan & piang would've join in too.
On Mon noon, KC came to pick me out for lunch. We went to look for piang & went for Bak Kut Teh at 'Grandma's Place'. Wow... after the bak kut teh, i kind of felt sick. Too much heaty food wid KC & i think my body was starting to get sick. It rained really heavily tat afternoon. Tat nite we planned to go eat crabs wid KC. He was craving for crabs... n we MUST teman him to eat. If not, later he go back to Spore, but still think of crabs n cannot concentrate on his exam. So i called Hai Pa Wang tat afternoon n told them to reserve 2kg crabs for me. No matter wat, 'wind or rain', me MUST HAVE CRABS tat nite. Tat nite we ordered baked crabs, fried crabs wid eggs, drunken prawns, 'ma li chai', black pepper ostrich & salted vege wid taufu soup. I couldn't eat tat much tat nite. My throat was starting to get uncomfortable. Mek was sick too. Then if only depend on pei shan & piang to eat, i think the food was way too much for them n KC's aim was to go for the crabs, hmm.... but i guessed KC enjoyed the baked crabs a lot. After tat we went to Room 205 for a drink. Well, we were really very full but that's how pigs are lo... they never stop eating or drinking. We had Ice Blended Chocolate, Choc Milkshake, Mango Smoothies & hot Hazelnut Latte. Sigh.... wid KC back in town, no diet plan will work out for me.
Let me share the photos of the crabs here!
9/01/2006
post performance
wow! it'd been a very packed week for me. Merdeka Day is finally over, and so had our performance on 30th Aug nite as well as tonite's dance. Hadn't had anytime at all to blog here... well, tonite's dance is finally over... phew.....
On the eve of merdeka, we performed at Kuching Waterfront and were on the stage when the countdown began. After our 'sketsa tari' everyone was drenched in sweat, even the ministers gave us disgusting looks, disbelieving tat we were tat hot! Well, try putting them in thick clothings and asked them to jump here n there on the stage wid those blazing spotlights right in their faces!
I got to dress up as an Arabian lady, and oso as an IPT (Institut Pengajian Tinggi) student. As for the lantern dance, needless to say, i'd to dress up in bright yellow, cute chinese costume.
We had thick make up on tat nite, and luckily we were there early and we got each other to help to 'paint' our faces.... if not, i think my face would haf ended up being painted wid messy colours!
Tonite was fun! We dressed up as ghosts for our performance tonite. I was wondering why do we need to dress up as ghosts for the Maybank dinner, and i finally understood when i saw that the theme for their event tonite was 'Horror Nite'! I was so impressed cox everyone really put a lot of effort dressing up themselves as ghosts n ghouls n monsters n spooky creatures.... even the waiters dressed up as ghosts!
I saw vampires (all different races of vampires - dracula, 'pontianak', 'kiong xi'), witches, mummies, zombies... oh ya, i din managed to see if anyone dressed up as werewolf. I think no one tot of tat! hehe...
I dressed up too, more like a zombie + beggar as my clothes were torn n smeared all over.... well, if i can get hold of any photos, i'll post it here right away. It was fun when we dressed up, we couldn't even recognise each other.
Let's juz hope i can get hold of my photos fast... i wanna share it wid all of u!
On the eve of merdeka, we performed at Kuching Waterfront and were on the stage when the countdown began. After our 'sketsa tari' everyone was drenched in sweat, even the ministers gave us disgusting looks, disbelieving tat we were tat hot! Well, try putting them in thick clothings and asked them to jump here n there on the stage wid those blazing spotlights right in their faces!
I got to dress up as an Arabian lady, and oso as an IPT (Institut Pengajian Tinggi) student. As for the lantern dance, needless to say, i'd to dress up in bright yellow, cute chinese costume.
We had thick make up on tat nite, and luckily we were there early and we got each other to help to 'paint' our faces.... if not, i think my face would haf ended up being painted wid messy colours!
Tonite was fun! We dressed up as ghosts for our performance tonite. I was wondering why do we need to dress up as ghosts for the Maybank dinner, and i finally understood when i saw that the theme for their event tonite was 'Horror Nite'! I was so impressed cox everyone really put a lot of effort dressing up themselves as ghosts n ghouls n monsters n spooky creatures.... even the waiters dressed up as ghosts!
I saw vampires (all different races of vampires - dracula, 'pontianak', 'kiong xi'), witches, mummies, zombies... oh ya, i din managed to see if anyone dressed up as werewolf. I think no one tot of tat! hehe...
I dressed up too, more like a zombie + beggar as my clothes were torn n smeared all over.... well, if i can get hold of any photos, i'll post it here right away. It was fun when we dressed up, we couldn't even recognise each other.
Let's juz hope i can get hold of my photos fast... i wanna share it wid all of u!
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