'did u see me cry?...'

Today i'm feeling rather blue... n am listening to the song "Hear Me Cry" to suit my mood. Last nite, i'd a nice sleep, while hugging "Jack" (my new soft toy buddy pillow) tightly. My arm hurts all thru the nite... hated my arm when it aches like tat. But the pain was gone when i woke up this morn.

Last weekend had been a rather busy weekend. Had been a busy cum sad cum hurt as well as one of the sweetest weekend for me. Lately, I had a mixture of feelings inside of me. Last Friday nite was the best.
I had a long nite... performed at my fren's wedding, and we danced 'Dhoom' on her wedding stage, as a wedding gift for her. After her wedding dinner, i went to my best fren's house to celebrate her birthday. She's definately one of the nicest homely type gal tat every guy would wish to have. She made so much food for us... fried baby popia, "sio-bee", fried seaweed crisps, milkshake... she's really such an angel!
Sorry mek... i hadn't had any time to get u a birthday gift yet. I owe it to u first, okie... sorry for such lack of sincerity but i really did go around thinking of wat i can get for u, and ended up i wonder if u'd like all those dainty accessories as much as i do! Hmm... wat type of accessories u'd like to have most currently???
Sat, i went shopping wid piang n peishan. Helped piang to search for a new swimsuit. I hope tat we can really go swimming next time if we haf the time to. Piang, i really wish tat i can go for holiday too... sorry for owest being not able to suit my time. Wat trip can be one tat's economical but oso on public holidays???

Today the sky seems to be so dim for me. Sigh!!! Everyone is striving for the best for their own life. Wat more can one say if we all know tat this is the bitter truth, tat money is the most important thing in one's life??? Career is the most important right now... i hope u really think like tat and accept the fact. Feel myself useless and am ashame of my realistic behaviour. For most things, i do understand and will agree to the decision tat had to be made out of it. The question of whether it's right or wrong will remain a question forever. Today, I feel tat my 'invisible wings' are torn. Feel as if I had not the might to fly even if my 'wings' are fine. Am carrying too much weight in heart tat had tied me down and unable to soar...



My prayer for u: no matter what happened, take care always and make the best out of everything! HUGS!