A week ago i was here feeling excited about my son going to school, now i'm here again feeling worried and sighing. Playschool was a bad idea, or i should say sending him to Taska Glory was a nightmare!
When we first thought of sending Jayden there, our intentions are just as simple as hoping tat he'll be able to mingle with his peers there as well as learn some basic motor skills like using spoon, toilet-training, etc. It is a PLAYschool after all. What do you expect the kids to do there anyway? It turned out tat we are enrolling him for a school that are expecting too much from him in return.
We should be grateful tat the school was actually holding a trial session before recruiting all the kids. Not juz the school will be able to evaluate the kids; the parents in return have the opportunity to judge the school and the teachers' patience and determination in teaching!
Taska Glory was a wrong choice. When i told all my friends about it, they all commented about what the teacher said. First day, the principal told me my son has very bad discipline and very bad-tempered. He was throwing toys, and throwing himself on the floor as well as banging his head when he couldn't find us. She said this is very serious as it is very bad example for the kids there. Sigh! Doesn't they need to consider tat the kid is feeling anxious when he noticed tat his parents wasn't there? Somemore it is Jayden's first time being away from my side for so long, and there were so many other kids around.
At the end of the trial week, i was told tat my son has very serious problems. He was said to be autistic, having the tendency to injure himself as well as hyperactivity. As a mum, I was worried of cuz when the principal told me so. I cried and cried out of anxiety. The principal said if they were to take Jayden in, we'll have to bring him for an assessment to show tat he is normal.
We came to realise tat perhaps the school condition wasn't suitable for ahDen. It was way too big-scaled... having too many kids and too few teachers. Jayden must have being running around these few days when he saw tat the place was new, and he must be busy exploring. It must be pretty difficult for him to concentrate when the teachers called his name, for there were far too many things that attract his attention.
We did bring him to the Sense Integration Centre, thinking of bringing him for an assessment. But from the bottom of our hearts, after i calmed down and thinking straight, we really don't feel tat there is anything wrong wid ahDen. Last Sat we brought him to see his paediatrics because of his cold tat was getting worse.
Dr.Huang was telling us not to worry about Jayden. She said she had seen ahDen for so many times, and it had never cross her mind tat he is autistic. She explained to us in details about wat she observed from ahDen, and as for hyperactive disorder, she ruled tat out as well. She told me tat ahDen is just more active compared to other child, but not til the hyperactive disorder phase. We felt so much relieved. She just told me tat the school wasn't right for him, and we should think of finding him a smaller scale school. I felt like hugging the doc tat time. I was so so so comforted when she told me tat. She even placed her hand on my arm to comfort me. Thanks so much Dr. Huang!
Hubby was telling me all these while tat the principal was wrong. All tat she ever told us was tat ahDen was spoiling all the other kid's fun, especially those whose parents paid for them to have holiday fun there! Jayden is juz a preschooler, I really don't know how much they expect from a 2year old. All those comments juz made me think tat i'm not disciplining my son enough and I made him into this monster. Even if we were to send him to a playschool in future, it would definately NOT be Taska Glory!
Thanks to all the concerns i got from friends. Uncle NgeeBang and Auntie Piang were among the first to tell me there's nothing wrong wid my son. If anything tat's wrong, it is the principal. Later, Aiwei wrote me a lengthy email even when she was so busy, telling me tat playschools nowadays are for money and shortcuts! Yes, they should juz tell me tat they couldn't cope wid my son but not to the extend tat he needs a special school. It was really terrible! I thought tat playschool and kindy teachers are supposed to be more loving and have more patience. All tat i ever wanted for my son is juz an environment where he can learn to socialise more with other kids. I am not able to provide him with all these at home, so I tot of playschool for him. It was definately a wrong gesture.
I cried and cried, thinking if there really is anything wrong wid my son. Now i juz hope he really is fine. All I can do is pray and hope tat i can be a better mother in disciplining him. Sigh! I really sound like a failure in being a mom...
12/09/2009
11/29/2009
nervous nervous!
Nervous, panic, worried & excited! It's the kind of feeling one get when it's your first day at school tomorrow. I thought i would never ever experienced this kind of feeling anymore after i graduated from university. =))
But this time, i'm feeling it all over again on behalf of my son. It'll be his first day at preschool tomorrow for the holiday trial class. Honestly, both hubby & I wonder and making lots of assumptions on how little Jayden will react tmr. I really do hope he'll get use to it.
I was busy getting ready all his stuffs juz now, packed and repacked, juz to make sure i haf everything ready for him. It really made me think back of my school years. I remembered how my mum will nagged us, telling us to make sure we bring all the new text books and stationaries we need for school on the last nite before a new school semester starts. It was all too familiar... then i'll pack and repack and repack, juz to make sure everything fits into my schoolbag nice and tidy. It was really funny but i always make a big fuss of what i need to bring to school, especially when i'm in primary & secondary school!
My kindy years i juz remembered crying non-stop at the school for weeks, or was it months. First day at primary school, i cried too but this time better. I think i cried for juz one day maybe, cox i have a sis who will always pop into my class to check on me when she's free. Hahaha... =)) First day at secondary school of cuz i didn't cry, eventhough it was a totally new environment for me with new classmates. Anyway i still have Emmy & Imelda together with me in the new school.
The next new school was at Kolej Abdillah, when we were thrown there for our F6. Sigh! This really sucks, for it was my first experience to stay in a boarding school. Staying in a hostel and not being able to go home everyday after school was totally sth new to me. The homesick feeling was terrible, and I juz tot I'd never had survived F6. Thankfully we got a transfer to SMK St. Joseph, and the first day at St. Joe was less frantic for me because i know i will be able to go home to see my mum and eat homecook food after school everyday. So who cares if the F6 syllabus was a struggle! =))
Finally, my last admittance was to university. Okie, here goes again the feeling of being away from home. So, the familiar anxiety and nervousness came once more again. Somemore, I still haf to take a flight by myself and later settle for transport to UM, and checking into the hostel. All those were new experiences back then and I truly haf the courage to face everything, although it really wasn't easy.
Here I am again, having this frantic feeling of going to a new school with a new environment again. I guess I'll be going through all these experiences again in my life until my Jayden graduates from high school or perhaps university, hopefully. And now, the anxious mum must go to bed early too... for school starts tomorrow! Nite nite!
But this time, i'm feeling it all over again on behalf of my son. It'll be his first day at preschool tomorrow for the holiday trial class. Honestly, both hubby & I wonder and making lots of assumptions on how little Jayden will react tmr. I really do hope he'll get use to it.
I was busy getting ready all his stuffs juz now, packed and repacked, juz to make sure i haf everything ready for him. It really made me think back of my school years. I remembered how my mum will nagged us, telling us to make sure we bring all the new text books and stationaries we need for school on the last nite before a new school semester starts. It was all too familiar... then i'll pack and repack and repack, juz to make sure everything fits into my schoolbag nice and tidy. It was really funny but i always make a big fuss of what i need to bring to school, especially when i'm in primary & secondary school!
My kindy years i juz remembered crying non-stop at the school for weeks, or was it months. First day at primary school, i cried too but this time better. I think i cried for juz one day maybe, cox i have a sis who will always pop into my class to check on me when she's free. Hahaha... =)) First day at secondary school of cuz i didn't cry, eventhough it was a totally new environment for me with new classmates. Anyway i still have Emmy & Imelda together with me in the new school.
The next new school was at Kolej Abdillah, when we were thrown there for our F6. Sigh! This really sucks, for it was my first experience to stay in a boarding school. Staying in a hostel and not being able to go home everyday after school was totally sth new to me. The homesick feeling was terrible, and I juz tot I'd never had survived F6. Thankfully we got a transfer to SMK St. Joseph, and the first day at St. Joe was less frantic for me because i know i will be able to go home to see my mum and eat homecook food after school everyday. So who cares if the F6 syllabus was a struggle! =))
Finally, my last admittance was to university. Okie, here goes again the feeling of being away from home. So, the familiar anxiety and nervousness came once more again. Somemore, I still haf to take a flight by myself and later settle for transport to UM, and checking into the hostel. All those were new experiences back then and I truly haf the courage to face everything, although it really wasn't easy.
Here I am again, having this frantic feeling of going to a new school with a new environment again. I guess I'll be going through all these experiences again in my life until my Jayden graduates from high school or perhaps university, hopefully. And now, the anxious mum must go to bed early too... for school starts tomorrow! Nite nite!
11/28/2009
Sigh! ;(
Today i cried in bed. Felt really heartache and heartbroken. Sigh! I was being overly sensitive maybe. After a few minutes of tears-shedding, i sat up in my bed and tell myself... "I cannot be a loser. Rather than juz sit here and sob, I must do my best to correct what i dislike!"
While Jayden was napping, i filled a quarter of a bucket with water and added detergent to it. Then i starting wiping and cleaning my room carpet, although i really don't know if whatever tat i'm doing will actually clean the carpet. After wiping it for minutes, then i finally sprayed Dettol freshener on the carpet.
After calming down and tell myself tat it's really not such a big fuss after all, and although tat i really dislike his behaviour of not respecting others, i tell myself tat i MUST bear with it because he is my elder and i respect him. After all the 5th Commandment in the bible tell us tat 'We Must Always Honour Our Parents', and I will abide wilingly.
Not everything will forever goes the way you wanted them to. What we can do is to make the best out of current situation and not be a loser, juz sitting down blaming and moping! Cheers Ying and stay tough!
While Jayden was napping, i filled a quarter of a bucket with water and added detergent to it. Then i starting wiping and cleaning my room carpet, although i really don't know if whatever tat i'm doing will actually clean the carpet. After wiping it for minutes, then i finally sprayed Dettol freshener on the carpet.
After calming down and tell myself tat it's really not such a big fuss after all, and although tat i really dislike his behaviour of not respecting others, i tell myself tat i MUST bear with it because he is my elder and i respect him. After all the 5th Commandment in the bible tell us tat 'We Must Always Honour Our Parents', and I will abide wilingly.
Not everything will forever goes the way you wanted them to. What we can do is to make the best out of current situation and not be a loser, juz sitting down blaming and moping! Cheers Ying and stay tough!
10/24/2009
happy bday 2 me 2009!
Tis is my final year wid my age starting wid a number 2! Wow... din realise i'm so in my late twenties now! How fast time seems to zoom passed... I had a wonderful birthday tis year and 3 celebrations! I know how much i'm loved by loved ones around me, as well as frens!
1st Celebration :- Piang came to KK for the Borneo Marathon, and nb too came from labuan for the marathon. We stayed at Hyatt for a nite, and on Sunday the 11th (although it was days before my birthday), my two best friends insisted on celebrating my bday for me. When i was still single and those days back in Kuching, we always will celebrate our fren's bday together if we haf the chance to. Those were the days when we still plan for surprises and purposely go shopped for bday gifts or cake for the bday boy or gal! Although it is quite impossible for us to do this now, for everyone in the group is so far apart from each other, being in different places on planet earth... i know tat all of us truly cherish the time we used to spend together. Even though they are all juz memories now, at least it was part of our life before.
Sunday afternoon, we went to 1Borneo. We had a wonderful japanese meal at Michi. It was Piang & Nb's treat. The menu was reasonably priced, and the sushi there was great. I love the soft shell crab & sashimi. We ordered a set of Bento, some 'maki's and also 'Macha' - green tea ice cream!
2nd Celebration :- On the following Sunday again, 18th Oct, another bunch of frens decided to celebrate my bday for me. A few days before MeiChing called and asked if i'll be free on Sun. I was pretty suspicious of her suddenly asking if we'll be free for dinner. And finally she told me tat she wanted us to go over to her house to eat 'mee sua'. ;)) So sweet of her, purposely cooking 'Foochow Mee Sua' for me juz to celebrate my bday.
On the actual day, 19th Oct, i woke up and there were heaps of sms on my fon! All from family members & frens... although i'm one year older, i feel very happy bcox i feel tat i haf lots of frens & love ones around me who cares for me... and it's pretty obvious tat the number is growing! =)) Then they were fon calls and wishes in FaceBook too! Thanks all!
Tat nite we went to Little Italy for our italian dinner. We had one large carnivora pizza, one beef lasagna and also promodoro garlic bread for appetizer. Yummy yum yum.... eat n eat n eat.... so pig!
Jayden's mummy will forever be young at heart.... ;)) Welcome 29!
1st Celebration :- Piang came to KK for the Borneo Marathon, and nb too came from labuan for the marathon. We stayed at Hyatt for a nite, and on Sunday the 11th (although it was days before my birthday), my two best friends insisted on celebrating my bday for me. When i was still single and those days back in Kuching, we always will celebrate our fren's bday together if we haf the chance to. Those were the days when we still plan for surprises and purposely go shopped for bday gifts or cake for the bday boy or gal! Although it is quite impossible for us to do this now, for everyone in the group is so far apart from each other, being in different places on planet earth... i know tat all of us truly cherish the time we used to spend together. Even though they are all juz memories now, at least it was part of our life before.
Sunday afternoon, we went to 1Borneo. We had a wonderful japanese meal at Michi. It was Piang & Nb's treat. The menu was reasonably priced, and the sushi there was great. I love the soft shell crab & sashimi. We ordered a set of Bento, some 'maki's and also 'Macha' - green tea ice cream!
2nd Celebration :- On the following Sunday again, 18th Oct, another bunch of frens decided to celebrate my bday for me. A few days before MeiChing called and asked if i'll be free on Sun. I was pretty suspicious of her suddenly asking if we'll be free for dinner. And finally she told me tat she wanted us to go over to her house to eat 'mee sua'. ;)) So sweet of her, purposely cooking 'Foochow Mee Sua' for me juz to celebrate my bday.
It had been quite sometime since the last time our group of church frens gathered together for dinner. Now tat we haf new babies into our group, at times it can be quite troublesome bringing all the kids out together for dinner. I really love to eat 'Foochow Mee Sua'. Although tat Sunday, MeiChing still need to work, she purposely rushed back home to cook meesua and dinner for all of us - 4 family tat is - wid the purpose of celebrating my bday. Really feel so touched! Thank you MeiChing & Daniel!
And also hugs & kisses to hubby! He purposely woke up early in the morning before we went to church, n went to the market to buy fish, prawn, etc.... He said since it's to celebrate my bday, we mustn't go empty handed. So he asked the chef to cook stew beef, butter prawns, steam fish & brinjals wid sambal. Ended up dinner was quite a feast. After dinner & cake, we had fruit feast as well. There were rambutans, lychees, langsat, guava & durians!
On the actual day, 19th Oct, i woke up and there were heaps of sms on my fon! All from family members & frens... although i'm one year older, i feel very happy bcox i feel tat i haf lots of frens & love ones around me who cares for me... and it's pretty obvious tat the number is growing! =)) Then they were fon calls and wishes in FaceBook too! Thanks all!
3rd Celebration :- Hubby purposely cooked me 'mee sua' again, wid the 'kampung' chicken he bought from market. It was really so sweet of him. Everytime when it's my bday, he'll cook 'sow mien' for me.... but when it's his bday, i don prepare 'sow mien' for him. Then there was this ice cream cake from Vedablu again tis year... but of different flavour - yogurt & ferrero rocher chocolate taste!
Hubby is forever tat sweet and caring. It's funny when u think tat a guy like him can cook. Actually he doesn't really cooks, but juz some specified dishes it's still okie for him. I love u darling!
Tat nite we went to Little Italy for our italian dinner. We had one large carnivora pizza, one beef lasagna and also promodoro garlic bread for appetizer. Yummy yum yum.... eat n eat n eat.... so pig!
Jayden's mummy will forever be young at heart.... ;)) Welcome 29!Ohh... last but not least, birthday presents from hubby. Apart from my Nike MaryJane, hehe.... i've got a new Nike Yoga Mat & a Nike bottle! ;))
9/15/2009
my Nike Mary Jane!
Birthday present from hubby year 2009 - :)) ... i wanted to get a red pair of Nike ladies slip-on shoes since tat time we went shopping wid nb at the Nike store. When we went to Langkawi, the price for the Nike shoes there were really tempting. So much cheaper compared to the price in KK.
A pair of red colour Mary Jane was the initial pair i planned to get, but when i got to the shop at town tat day, the lady told us tat there'll be new stocks arriving tat very afternoon. So she suggested tat i came back later to take a look, and we went back to tat shop the very next day since we'll oso be going back to the nearby shops there to get chocolates. Finally i chose another pair of Mary Jane which the lady said was their new stock, and it felt really good on my feet. So pretty... even ahDen keeps on saying "mummy shoe shoe 'mei mei' " - 'mei mei' means pretty in mandarin! ;))
Yesterday he even tried to wear my shoes without any of us noticing, and keep on saying 'mei mei' when pointing to my gigantic shoes on his tiny feet!
8/14/2009
'lao huang kua' ~ Old Cucumber Soup
Last nite as we were shopping at Likas Servay, i went to get a pack of Sayur Manis or better known as 'su zai chai'. Tat'll be one of the dish for our dinner tonite. Then i saw this old cucumber and it reminded me of my mum. When i called back a few days ago, she said she couldn't find any old cucumber or 'lao huang kua' in Kuching. So the next time i go back Kuching, she reminded me to get her 2cucumbers. Mummy is so cute... tis really made me giggled on the phone. Tat time when we went to KL, she tasted the 'lao huang kua' soup when we ordered for Jayden's dinner and instantly my mum love the soup. She said tat it's very refreshing and can help to reduce body heat. ;)) So til today, she wanted very much to try to boil the soup on her own. Don worry mummy, i'll get u those old cucumbers when i go back Kuching early Sept!
I never tried boiling this soup before, although i think i might know the simple process of it. Tat's to dump all the ingredients inside the slow cooker and let it boil. I tot of searching for the recipe on the net first, but when we get home after following hubby to do his chores tis morning it was already running late. So i wash n cut the cucumber and dumped all the ingredients inside.... the chicken and red dates. I always think tat it's nicer to use bony pork or 'bak kut' to boil soup cox pork juz gif u tat stronger taste in soup. But i'll haf to do with chicken here cox we hardly buy any pork here in KK. So my soup....
And to share the recipe which i got from the net... Old Cucumber Soup from Hochiak! Delicious Asian Food Next time i'll try to add some dried scallops. My boy boy juz love to drink soup as much as i do... for although i'm a 'banana', i'm still a very pure Chinese. ;))
Oh... another additional items.... pineapples! Can u believe tat tis is one whole pineapple??? I think it shud be lar. I kept on pestering my hubby to buy me pineapples and finally he bought me one. I do love pineapples, sweet ones of cuz. So finally, pineapples as my afternoon snack. I think pineapple is one of the greatest fruit there ever was, cox it goes extremely well with a lot of drink especially cocktail. I know for sure Mek hated this fruit... and even if she sees tis pic, she'll start to shiver with fear! =))
I never tried boiling this soup before, although i think i might know the simple process of it. Tat's to dump all the ingredients inside the slow cooker and let it boil. I tot of searching for the recipe on the net first, but when we get home after following hubby to do his chores tis morning it was already running late. So i wash n cut the cucumber and dumped all the ingredients inside.... the chicken and red dates. I always think tat it's nicer to use bony pork or 'bak kut' to boil soup cox pork juz gif u tat stronger taste in soup. But i'll haf to do with chicken here cox we hardly buy any pork here in KK. So my soup....
And to share the recipe which i got from the net... Old Cucumber Soup from Hochiak! Delicious Asian Food Next time i'll try to add some dried scallops. My boy boy juz love to drink soup as much as i do... for although i'm a 'banana', i'm still a very pure Chinese. ;))
Oh... another additional items.... pineapples! Can u believe tat tis is one whole pineapple??? I think it shud be lar. I kept on pestering my hubby to buy me pineapples and finally he bought me one. I do love pineapples, sweet ones of cuz. So finally, pineapples as my afternoon snack. I think pineapple is one of the greatest fruit there ever was, cox it goes extremely well with a lot of drink especially cocktail. I know for sure Mek hated this fruit... and even if she sees tis pic, she'll start to shiver with fear! =))
8/10/2009
wat is wrong?!?!
Is there something wrong wid young couples nowadays??? Last Sat, i received a shocking news which really troubled me very much. I juz knew tat darling Mek was finally conceived and i was so happy for her tat i blurted out a happy congrats to her in msn, only to find out minutes later tat she had had a miscarriage a few days ago! It was shocking for none of us expected it to happen. Sigh! Miscarriages again.....
After my own experience; whenever friends asked me about a 2nd child, i'd came out clear with them about what happened. From there i have had lots of frens sharing wid me their own experience, and honestly u won't haf friends sharing these types of news with you unless if they are wiling to let u know. Surprisingly, the number of friends tat experienced miscarriages before are abundant. This really got me asking about why and why more. Sigh!
What is wrong wid humans nowadays? Is it really so hard to conceive healthily?? It is really very sad for anyone to haf to go through such an experience. It is cruel and hurting, and sometimes you wonder what have u done wrong to deserve all this. Like what Emmy told me before in her comment, we can plan but still God is the one who order our steps.
"I recognize my lost child is in His caring hands for all eternity..." This is a verse i got from a special prayer for special needs, and i'd like to share wid my fellow sisters who experienced similar experience, no matter wat religion you might be. Darling Mek, you must be strong again. Like i said, it's alright to cry and it's alright to mourn. Give yourself some time but after the mourning period, we must once again get up and be strong. The most wonderful thing about this world is there is still HOPE. Often it takes a misfortune to remind us of how fortunate we are. It wouldn't always be rainy days... and i have FAITH!
After my own experience; whenever friends asked me about a 2nd child, i'd came out clear with them about what happened. From there i have had lots of frens sharing wid me their own experience, and honestly u won't haf friends sharing these types of news with you unless if they are wiling to let u know. Surprisingly, the number of friends tat experienced miscarriages before are abundant. This really got me asking about why and why more. Sigh!
What is wrong wid humans nowadays? Is it really so hard to conceive healthily?? It is really very sad for anyone to haf to go through such an experience. It is cruel and hurting, and sometimes you wonder what have u done wrong to deserve all this. Like what Emmy told me before in her comment, we can plan but still God is the one who order our steps.
"I recognize my lost child is in His caring hands for all eternity..." This is a verse i got from a special prayer for special needs, and i'd like to share wid my fellow sisters who experienced similar experience, no matter wat religion you might be. Darling Mek, you must be strong again. Like i said, it's alright to cry and it's alright to mourn. Give yourself some time but after the mourning period, we must once again get up and be strong. The most wonderful thing about this world is there is still HOPE. Often it takes a misfortune to remind us of how fortunate we are. It wouldn't always be rainy days... and i have FAITH!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
